Moon picked mates

chapter 12

Alisha POV

" Your repressing my wolf the entire time I'm here, the whole three months? Isn't that a bit harsh for my first offensive."  I just can't believe this is happening to me again.  It was bad enough growing up wearing one  when I didn't even know I had a wolf but now that I did I wasn't too eager to go back down this road again. I'm going to be just like I was before, a human in all ways with this band of silver  on me.  No enhanced senses , no shifting and no other supernatural will be able to tell what I am.  My scent will be changed and I'm going to be hidden again in the world.

I know how it works, this isn't my first rodeo when it comes to this shit. I'm not too happy I didn't even have any choices offered to me first.  This so sucks,  I was just beginning to understand that part of me and now it's gone again.  As a temporary pack member I have to do what ever the Alpha decides, at least Paola isn't part of this mess I made.

"The Alpha feels like this is the best route for you at this time to ensure the safety of the pack. Your unpredictability and known association with humans place puts our little community at risk." This old fucker is enjoying every second of this, I can see it in his eyes. He's thinks I'm going to suffer from losing half of myself  like this and I would if I was a normal shifter but I'm not.  I won't  feel the loss very much at all, I had years of experience living as a normal human and returning to it doesn't make me happy but I'll be fine. It's really not as big a punishment as he thinks it is, but he doesn't need to  know that. Let him think it's going to break me down, I don't care  as long as I can do my internship without anymore problems. I force myself to think of something sad and a lone tear runs down the side of my face. Yeah I can so play this, let him think I'm some weak female. I don't want them to do something worse for my punishment.

" But I don't know how I can function for three months without my wolf. " I let a small sob escape by throat ( I took a drama class in college as an elective and I can cry on demand ) , he is buying this hook, line and sinker. I lowered my eyes and sunk down in my seat for effect acting as if this is the worse thing that's ever happened to me. 

" You need to assimilate into our culture here and this will assist the transition"  looking up through my lashes, I can see the smug look on his face.  I force myself to release more tears, not always an  easy task for someone who never really cries . Thinking about the saddest thing I could, Ironman's death in the  Avengers movie endgame. My tears come easily, yeah I'm a softie about my Avengers. He's loving this whole act and watches me closely while "I suffer" .

"I could possibly talk the Alpha into reducing your time" He leans forward in his seat and I watch his every move. I can see a plan forming in his mind and a look of lust is on his face now. " Your a very beautiful female and I'm a lonely male. We could come to an arrangement during your stay here that could benefit us both " His eyes rake down my figure and a cold chill runs through me.   What a disgusting creep, here he was pushing all this crap about unmated females behaviors and he wants to get in my pants. He's even wearing a wedding ring, so much for loyalty to his mate. 

I try to hold on to the helpless female role I've been playing but am losing it fast. I can't help but wonder how many times he did this to other females in this pack, weaker ones than me. I can feel the anger in me rise at the injustice, he's a Beta and in a position of power using it to his benefit. But  I can't blow up at him and I know it, but I'm not putting out to him either so I swallow down all my feelings. Looking at him with a look of shock on my face as I focus on my next statement.

" I'm sorry but I don't date I'm waiting for my mate so it wouldn't be appropriate. Someday when we find each other , I want everything to be a "first " with them." I smile softy, trying to come off as  a virgin while  I  keep the grin off of my face. I can play the mate card in this situation and they didn't catch me doing anything on the beach. They don't know any of my personal shit and I'm going to keep it that way. I'm staying the hell away from any of the males in this pack.