mixed emotions Aka (own Up To YOUR RESPONSIBLY)

chapter 10

X was sleep.... me on the other hand I was thinking a little too hard why did he kiss me?does he really love me?was it a lie?did he say it because he was in the moment?

I will never know it sucks to know that the person you want is constantly fighting from what they need he told me not to fall for him but he's making it impossible

I want him.i feed off him.he is my drug.he is the one I want to be with forever.

I began to star at him while he slept he looked so peaceful, relaxed not so mean I begin to play in his hair his eyes open a little bit

"Sorry didn't mean to wake you"I said moving my hand he smiled

"You didn't wake me my dream did"he said to me

"What was it about"I asked him he just smiled at me trying to hold eye contact but I couldn't I looked the other way

"Soon you'll see"he said to me and got up and got in his phone then I got a call from my brother Shiloh I answered it

(Y'all know how phone conversation go)

Shiloh wants me to make a new song for him I told him when I finish thinking about what to sing I'll make it he said ok

Me and my brother we always make music together

"Who was that"he asked

"My brother Shiloh"I told him his eyes widen

"Shiloh as in Shiloh dynasty"he asked me I nodded my head yes

"Damn he helps me make all my music"he said and I smiled Shiloh was a good person and a good brother he was always there for me when I needed him most

"Well I should get ready I have to go see Lena"I told him I got up just to be turned back around by x

"You know your mine right?"he asked me I didn't know what to say was I his? Is he playing?

"Y-yes"I said and he pecked my lips my brown skin turned red

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"Yeah it felt so good too it was so.....sexy"I said and we laughed

"Did y'all you know...do it"Lena asked me I shook my he ad no fast

"No no nothing like that"I said and we just talked about random shit

"Ski asked me a question last night when he came over"she said blushing bushing down on her hands

"Okay......what he say"I asked curious

"He asked me if I wanted to be his girlfriend"she said me eyes lit up I jumped up and down in exsitement

"So what did you say"I asked looking her in the eyes she was smiling so hard I knew the answer

"Yes..I said yes"she said we jumped up and down and stopped and laughed

"We so damn childish"she said

"I know right"I said back and then we just was chillin her bullet whoms was almost getting healed

"So what's up with you and x"she asked out the blue

"What do you mean"I asked her confused not knowing what she was talking about

"Like are y'all dating or at lease talking"she asked I sighed

"I really don't know what we are like he told me that I'm his but what the hell does he even mean"I said now getting frustrated x needs to say something before I do

"Oh wow you should just ask him what are y'all"she said drinking form her water bottle

"No I'm to scared to know the answer.....it might not be the answer I want"I told her looking down she then patted my back  then a random question hit me