I was on the roof top of my house I could see the whole world that's how tall my house was I was high Ash to I just smoked 4 blunts to myself
It's (8:45pm) I seen x and ski and them pull into there drive way I roll my eyes and look the other way not wanting to see x get out the car it felt like my whole life was being dragged away from me everything was leaving me
(Makayla is going to be using Billie eilish SONG ONLY 3 OF THEM AS HER OWN)
I got up and stumbled to the edge of my house roof top and sat down
And looked at the world it was beautiful at night I sit on my house roof top when i need some alone time
"Take me to the roof top I wanna see,the world when I stop breathing, Turning blue,tell me love is endless don't be so pretintous,leave me like you do"I sang my way of venting was singing my pain out it made me feel like everyone was listening
"I like the song"I heard a similar voice say I turned around and seen x the last person I wanted to see
"Leave"I said as a tear fell from my eye I heard him walk closer I closed my eyes as he sat behind me leaving me between his legs I loved this feeling.
"I'm sorry Kay"he said I didn't say a word
"I was drunk she didn't mean anything to me"he said I never looked back at him I just closed my eyes and cried in silence but I'm sure he could hear me
"Makayla I have feeling for you really bad I kept telling myself I wasn't going to fall for you but I did...I want you and I'm going to have you weather you want me or not"he said I opened my eyes and looked at the world again and just started to breathe normally
"Kay please say something"he asked me
"I don't know what to say...x"I lied straight threw my teeth I knew exactly what to say but im not going to say it
"Why x,how could you lay in my bed and tell me you love me and kiss me.i and then go fuck a bitch"I asked him I wanted to know how
"Kay-gco
"No X everything has a meaning behind it which means you.know.why."I said and he sighed
"I thought that maybe if I fucked her I would stop having feelings for you and just go back to my old ways but it seems not to change"he said I was hurt by what he just said
"So you tried to get rid of me"I said still looking at the world
"No Kay"he said
"You didn't want to care for me"I said he wrapped his arms around me I didn't fight it I let him wrapped his arms around me
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"Kay I didn't it because I didn't want to hurt you.. everytime I get something good I draw it away"he said no I feel bad he just wanted the best for me but he was the best for me he just don't know it"No..you don't it's just that you never had nothing gOod in your life that you make everything seem bad"I told him and I turned around and towards him we made eyes contact
"Let me take you out on a date"he asked why the hell do he wanna go on a date I'm still kinda mad at him
"X I don't k-gco
"Please Makayla let make it up to you"he asked me should I give him another chance no he broke my heart but I still want him to be mines one day ughhhh
"Fine but I don't want it to be all fancy I want it to be a chill laid back date"I said to him he smiled
"Alright babygirl"he said that made me blush hard I tried to hide it but failed he lifted.my chin up and looked me and then my lips and he leaned in and are lips connected
There it is that feeling i keep getting when my body or lips touch him its like my stomach has butterflies in it and I just crave more of him I added tongue and we had a passionate kiss and I broke it I was breathing hard and he just smirked and looked at me I couldn't help but smile
"I think I should get in the house I said getting up and so did he and I stumbled and my left foot went off the roof
"Ahh"I yelled then x caught my arm and pulled me up
" Let's get u inside"he said I nodded we got off the roof and walked to my front door
"Tomorrow at 8:30pm be ready"he said
"Okay"I said and he hugged me and as he walked away I quickly slapped dat ass he gave me that 'dont do dat shit nomo look'
"I ain't with dat gay shit bruh"he said I laughed and he walked away
"Good night x lov-i cut myself off quickly
"Good night Makayla I love you too"he said smiling and walked away I shut my door and ran upstairs put my phone on the charger and put on some short and tank top and went to bed
Outside my misery I think I'll find a way of visioning a better life for the rest of us, the rest of us, theres hope for the rest of us ,the rest of us~xxxtentacion
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mixed emotions Aka (own Up To YOUR RESPONSIBLY)
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