mixed emotions Aka (own Up To YOUR RESPONSIBLY)

chapter 11

I was sitting on my roof top and my house was so big and tall I could see everything even x dumb ass I'm pretty sure he saw me too when he pulled up but I don't car Im high as hell and can barley keep balance
(MAKAYLA IS GONNA USE ONE OF BILLIES SONGS AS HER ON)

All I could think about was x why would he do that dumb shit I stood up but I was stumbling ever where I went to the edge of the roof

"Might as well"I said and I leaned back wards and I felt myself but someone caught my arm I opened my eyes

"X"I said he pulled me back up and hugged me I tried to fight it but I gave in I missed him but I also disliked him at the moment I felt tears come out my eyes

"Stay"he said I began to cry hard we both then sat down on the roof of my house as I cried

"Im sorry"he said but why was I this fucking upset we didn't even date

"Why would you do this to me"I asked him slowing down my cry

Silence was all there was I looked up at his face he was trying to find a answer but COULDN'T he had guilt in his eyes

"I don't know Makayla I was just drunk as hell but I promise to you I'm sorry"he said to me I could tell he ment what he said by his voice and look on his face

"It doesn't matter it's not like we date anyways"I said It hurts to know that the person you want is hurting you I could tell he was hurt by what I said he just looked at the world form my roof top so did I in his arms

"Take me to the roof top I wanna see the world when I stop breathing,turning blue
Don't be so pretintous leave me like you do"I sang out that was how I lifted stuff off my chest by singing my feelings out

"I never left you Makayla"x said I scoffed

"You will"I said and he sighed

"No I wont....why do you fear me leaving you so much"he asked me

"Because everyone does,they always do"I said to him

"Im not everyone so stop fucking saying that...you don't have to say it back but I love you and I mean it"he said to me once again should I say it back?

"This is why I distant myself from people I seem to hurt them more than they already are"He told me I scoffed

"Your right about that"i said he chuckled

"But when I'm with you it's like I want do do good I want to do good things I want to risk everything for you,you are my happiness"he said I was shocked by his words I didn't know what to think my emotions was running wild for him

"Yeah?for how long"I asked him

"Forever"he said I don't know why but I wanted to smile but I didn't

"It's late you should get inside"he told me I nodded my head and we got off the roof top and walked in my house well I walked in the stood by the door

"Goodnight Kay"x said I turned around and looked at him

"Goodnight x"i said and he walked away and closed the door

"Please stay"I said lowley so only I could hear it

{Jahseh pov}

As I walked in my house i  went straight to my room and took off my shirt and put on some basketball shorts and laid in my bed and then someone knocked on my door

"Come in!"I yelled and the door opened revealing ski he sat on my bed

"Whats wrong vro"ski asked

"I fucked up..bad"I said he sighed

"I know but that doesn't mean y'all can't be cool"he said I don't wanna be cool

"I don't wanna be cool I want to be her nigga jit I wanna wake up in the morning next to her I want her to be mine I wanna call her mine without looking stupid"I said to him honestly I loved Makayla I don't wanna catch...well I didn't want to catch feeling for her but I already did I just keep fucking shit up

"Well then ask her on a date nigga make it up to her show her that you care"ski said and I chuckled

"I'm glad your here ion what I'll do without yo goofy ass"I said and we laughed

"Yo so you gonna start this music thing or what"ski asked I need the money I don't care about the fame

"Yeah I guess"i said and we dapped each other and he was about to walk out the door

"Can u shut the door on the way out"I said and he nodded

"Yeah"he said and I went to sleep I hope she say yeah cause I ain't taking no for a answer

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I was playing the game with ski we all just got back from the studio

"YEAH NIGGA"ski yelled in joy cause he won

"Nigga shut up and sit down this your first time winning since we been playing"I said laughing and everyone else laughed too

"He is right"tank said laughing

"Man fuck y'all niggas I'm hungry"ski said nigga always want some food

"When ain't you hungry"wifi said and we laughed

"When ever I'm eating"ski said

"Yo a trip nigga"I said laughing

"I mean I could trip on that dick zaddy"ski said like a female

"I mean it's yours if you want it"I joked and we all died of laugher

"I'm finna go make a hot pocket"ski said

"Make me one too"I told him and he nodded

"So you and makayla cool"tank asked me shid ion

"Ion man I mean I went to see her last night"I said and he gave me a smirk

"What y'all do"wifi and tank asked giving me that "y'all fucked face"

"No we didn't fuck but we just talked"I said and the just laughed

"Yeah talked about-gco

"Nigga don't say it"I said and they laughed

Isn't it lovely all alone,hear made of glass my mind of stone~billie eilish