mixed emotions Aka (own Up To YOUR RESPONSIBLY)

chapter 16

3 weeks later

I've been throwing up every day and I'm gaining weight x was at the studio his song 'look at me' had blown up So he got a manger and all that other stuff we have been taking things slow we don't want to rush things

I ran to the bathroom and threw up in the toilet and brushed my teeth

"Uhhh this is the 6 time today"I said to myself what if I'm pregnant I mean we only did it two times and he pulled out and I haven't slept with no one but him

I grabbed my keys and went to my cat and drive to CVS

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I just got done peeing on the test I have to wait 5 minutes to see the results I can't be pregnant not now I'm still so young I grabbed the test

"Holy shit"I said to myself I began to cry it had two lines on the stick which means I'm PREGNANT I'm not ready for this at all what the hell do I do I can't get rid of it I then slowed down my water works and just waited till x come over I have to tell him

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I heard the door open and I knew it was x I walked downstairs and seen him he came up to me and kissed me

"I missed you"he said hugging me I hugged him back

"I missed you too ...can we talk"I said on the urge of crying

"Sure and why have you been crying your eyes are so red and puffy who I gotta kill"he said

"Nobody umm I don't know how to tell you this but I'm um see well I'm pregnant"I said handing him the test he liked shocked

"Are you going to abort it"he asked me I gave him that what the fuck fce

"N..no x I'm keeping it"I said he sighed and out his head in his hands

"I'm not ready to be no father Makayla"he said there I goes the words I don't wanna hear

"But x this I your child, this is OUR child "I said I began. To cry once again

"I know but I just got my career and shit going I ain't ready for a kid kayla"he said getting up

"Oh and you think I am ,you think I'm ready ,no I'm not I'm scared I have no one and you are not helping here I need you x to be here with me and this baby"I said and he looked at me like this was goodbye

"Kayla I love you and I won't let nobody hurt you but I'm not ready Kayla"he said kissing me and broke it

"So your just gonna leave me like u was never shit to you"I asked him crying

"I just need to think Kayla"he said walking out I cried hard

"God what do I do now"I said to God I was so fucking scared how do I tell my mom

{Jahseh pov}

"Shes pregnant"I said they both looked at me shocked and started cheering

"I'm gonna be a god father
"Ski said

"I'ma be the God mama"Lena said but if only they knew what u was going to say

"Aren't you happy"ski asked I hstv signed

"No I'm not ready for this shit I can't go back and it's hurting me that I know I can't come back"I said Lena looked pissed ski put his head down in disappointment

"Wait u mean to tell me your leaving her"Lena said kinda hurt

"Maybe"I said hurt by my own words I didn't wanna leave kayla she was .y world my everything and leaving her would only make it worser for me and her

" 'maybe' you can't just leave her here to raise a baby on her own x you know what I'll help her she don't deserve someone like you"Lena said and walked out

I sighed

"You fucking up vro"ski said to me I don't know what to say I couldn't say anything all I know is that I wasn't ready to be a father at least not yet

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