Done In The Dark (Completed)

Chapter 17

Jazz

I really felt bad as fuck for doing Secret this, the Indian had me set her up to get kidnaped basically, he was making it seem like I planned this whole thing.

I called him to tell him this part was done.

"It's done Indian." I said.

"Good next part, tell her how much you love her, show her how much you love her. Do everything in your power to make her believe that shit." The Indian said.

"But.." I started.

*Click*

He had hung up the phone. I had to let Secret simmer down a couple days.
I wanted to tell her so bad that I was doing this for her daddy.

But I couldn't he was going to find out and kill me.

3 weeks later

"Secret we need to talk." I said as she turned over in the bed to face me.

"Yea we do." She said.

I inhaled deeply."I can't keep fucking with you, I made my mind up and I'm getting married in less then 6 months. You know I don't want to be with Mickey but I can't be with you either." I said

She rolled her eyes and said nothing.

" wow I thought you loved me jazz?" She asked.

"I do that's why the fuck we can't be together. It may not seem that way but I do I'm still in love with you Secret, that's why I do the petty shit that I do." I responded

She looked at me and turned her back towards me

"You In love with me but you marrying somebody else?" She asked.

"Secret I'm sorry that's all I could say, I hurt you in all ways possible and you still stay why ?" I asked.

" I stay because I love you jazz I love you with everything in me. But all you do is lie to me!" Secret yelled.

"Naw you got it all twisted up I lie to you because I care about yo feelings! If I told you the truth all the time then that means I don't give a fuck! I'm telling these hoes the truth. I lie to you because I care about yo feelings, it's obvious you can't handle the truth so don't fuck wit it ! " I yelled as I stood up.

"If I ask you something it's because I already know the truth I just want hear it from out your mouth jazz and I can't even get the decency of that l?" She said

"Secret I told you I lie because I care about you ! When I tell you the truth you hurt bruh I can't fucking win. " I explained.

She sat up in the bed.

"Wow son, you inlove with me and this what I get?" Secret said.

"You know jazz Sometimes I get sick of crying and I think I should just be by myself other times I wanna get even so then I think I should find me some one else Like maybe I should do the shit you do make you feel like I do. Go get me another nigga plus some side bitches too
Maybe then you'll feel my hurt then then you'll feel my pain maybe then you'd be so hurt that I could finally make you change, maybe then you'll start to see the shit that I be talkin bout. Maybe then you'll start to see the shit that I be bitchin bout!" She screamed.

"To you I will always be the same dirty ass bitch who cheats on you huh? I won't ever change huh?" I asked.

"All the hoes ,all the tears ,all the lies, all the times I caught you cheating with a side, like I'm so sick of this bullshit how would you feel if I did the same shit ?
Then what would you be thinking in your mind ? Would you be thinking that the bitch done ate me out from behind? Would you go get your phone try to call a few more times then hang up, send me a text and cuss me out for lying? "Secret asked.

I rolled my eyes, "why are you doing this? What's your point?" I asked.

"Like tell me could you really handle that? Would you really take me back if I was out here doing that ? Hell na you'd beat the shit out me for some shit like that. Jazz it's not a double standard. I'm still hurt bruh, you don't understand that. "Secret said as tears fell from her eyes.

I made it seem like what she was saying went in one ear and out the other, but in all actuality she made good points, I knew where she was coming from but I want too keep Secret out of harms way and if I still fucked with her they where going to take my baby. I had to hit her where it hurt so she could leave me alone.

" I think this is why I can't leave you alone, not only do I love you but it's because I know you still feel for me." I said

"So if I didn't feel for you do you think you would leave me alone?" She asked.

"No because I would still love you, I try to push you away honestly because I don't want to be the reason you can't find someone who treats you like a queen should be treated." I responded.

She covered her face with her hands and inhaled, "Jazz please be honest with me. Do you feel bad for me? Do you feel sorry for me and that's why you tell me the things that you say and do the things that you do?" She asked.

My heart broke when she asked me that but I held my composure as she looked me in my eyes as I began to lie." Yes, I feel bad that you still have feeling for me and I don't feel the same way, so I tell you shit to make you feel good."

Her head cocked a little to the side as tears streamed down her face.

I wiped her tears away and held her close. I kissed her cheek and she pulled away.

"I used to love you so much, it's kind of hard to believe how much I loved you before because now... I hate it when your near me, took a whole bottle of Percocet and I washed them back hoping to depart from my sadness, and tho my tears formed an ocean I only drowned in my madness because I loved you so much and you just never felt the same and even tho we shared a lot of things together we never shared my pain, now my heart can't seem to heal this pain that I'm feeling is far to real just too much that time can not erase.your shoulder turned so cold that even now it still gives me chills and I could only pay attention by ignoring the way that it feels And I stayed even tho you left me and i would always put you first and you would ALWAYS second guess me. When you cried I wiped at your tears. I really held you down, but all you did was play me like the dumb bitch I am. I tried my best to forget and move and now you decided to love me, when I show you a little bit of love you abuse the shit out of it. You tell me love me but turn around and say you only say that shit because you feel bad for me? Because you think I have feelings for you? You are the most disgusting human being I have ever encountered in my fucking life, everything to come out of your mouth was bullshit, I thought you where telling me shit from your heart and soul but as always you break my heart. How can you be so evil? I trusted you with everything, you set me up with my own father to get kidnapped. And expect everything to be ok? Man jazz you got me fucked up!
Get the fuck out my house! DONT YOU EVER COME BACK!" She cried.

I got up shook my head and walked out the door.

I asked myself why would the Indian want to hurt his daughter so bad?