Balance ~ Kylo Ren / Ben Solo

Chapter 1

I was running through the forest as quick as I possibly could, checking behind me every few seconds to make sure I wasn't being followed. I was hyperventilating in fear because I could barley see five feet in front of me, I was constantly having to catch myself from falling on random exposed roots, rocks, and god knows what else. I could barley keep my feet underneath me, but now wasn't the time to worry. I just need to run.

I had to get away from my village as fast as I could. It was about to be lit up in flames and burned to the ground into ash. I had no choice but to run away and leave it all to be destroyed. The Resistance was going to demolish it once they learned what was really going on here, just like they did with everything else. Every single person here was going to be murdered ruthlessly within a days time.

That was the plan, we couldn't call for an evacuation and we couldn't help it's inhabitants escape. We have to let the Resistance think they have a hand up on us, we wanted them to think we don't know. We had to sacrifice all of these people for the First Order. It sounded cruel but it wasn't our choice, it was a sacrifice we were forced to watch happened for our own sake because they forced that choice on us.

We have seen many of their "spies" over the last month, checking in to try and find out the secrets we've held here for so many years. Once we knew they were on to us we had to take everything out all of our bunkers and anything too important for them to get a hold of and leave. We had gone undetected for so long and it was being ruined because they had pushed to hard and we didn't hide enough. Years of work just gone down the drain. Yet another thing ruined by the Resistance and their ruthless tide of self righteousness.

We left misguided information and maps that lead no where, but that would only hold them off long enough for us to make another plan. We would let them think they are catching up to us, but they were going to be so wrong. Their spies were hardly subtle, half the village knows that they are Resistance, but they were still so unaware of what is about to happen. Hundreds, probably thousands of innocent clueless bystanders would be slaughtered.

Including my family. I was running away from my family. They were going to be left for dead because I couldn't bring them with me. I never got to say goodbye, I never got to hug them one last time, I'll never get to just be honest with them. I've had to lie about who I am and what I can do. I lied to keep the peace and love between us, otherwise if they knew the truth they'd want nothing to do with me. I'd have to let them die without ever having been honest with them.

I was a force user, I've kept it a lie for 22 years to keep the peace, yet everything I do I brings chaos and disorder. Now they're suffering because of me. I spent my entire life fighting for the very thing that's about to destroy them all. I couldn't help but put the blame on myself, I had felt I was responsible that we let this happen.

The First Order had caused me to emotionally disconnect from everyone and everything. I hardly feel much, if anything at all these days. When they told me to gather my things and prepare to flee away from the planet, I barley thought about my family. Even now, I of course realized what's about to happen and I'm sad to know it's happening because of my cause, but I'm not nearly as upset as I should be. I was more upset that I felt responsible for this all. I was more disappointed in myself than the actually reality that my family was going to die.

It's how I do what I can do, it's how I strengthen my powers. It's how I keep myself grounded and connected; disconnect from everything else. The force is strong within me, but having emotional baggage and people to worry about is only going to be a weakness. Emotions are weakening, power draining, and pathetic. Things I don't have room for.

I could see the opening to the underground base and the ship that now stood next to it just in the distance as I came up to the end of the heavy forest. It's where I've come to work and train for the last 10 years of my life. My parents knew I was involved with The First Order, but they thought I was just a mechanic for their TIE fighter jets. If they knew that I was a was one of the most powerful Dark Force users in training they would have disowned me. They would have shunned me like the misfit child they always thought I was.

They hated The First Order and as you could expect, they didn't like that I worked for them. They only let me work for them because it brought in good money to help them out. They didn't care that I enjoyed my work, they didn't care that it made me happy. I thought they were selfish and evil. If they knew I was Force sensitive much less using the dark side of the Force, I would have been dead to them.

They don't side with dark or light, but they wanted to act like none of it exists at all. Foolish. It's foolish of them because it's me who's getting first class transport to another First Order base and it's them who will be left to burn and be pillaged like animals by the Resistance.

We were nearly on the brink of war and they thought staying out of it would save them. That lack of interest wouldn't satisfy either side. We going into a war and in war you need to be prepared. Rule number one was to always be on the right side of it.

I ran out into the clearing and saw General Hux at the end of the loading ramp to the ship and I ran as fast I could because it looks like they were ready take off and get the hell off this planet. I ran up to him red faced and panting and he immediately grabbed my arm and ran into the ship with me. The field that surrounded us was full of sharp winds from the ship trying to take off. Hair got caught in my face as we ran up the ship ramp.

I was familiar with Hux because he worked hand in hand with my Master so he had a slight look of relief on his face to see me alive. I'm sure he wasn't worried they'd find me, but rather just that he wasn't sure if I was going to make it in time before they took off. I had to clear the town of all The First Order workers and army. I had spent the day working door to door to gather everyone in silence so no one would notice.

He was clearly distraught himself as he helped me into the ship. I think everyone was in a panic because this attack had been sprung on us only this morning. It was supposed to be a relaxing and normal day, but it clearly did not end up as such. Despite the calm protocol we had off base; in base was a mad house. I had never seen us so frantic to do anything else before.

I had been on missions plenty of time where things got crazy with General Sloane, but never had I experienced such a level of fear in The First Order. Even in the worst situations I had never seen people panic the way they had today, it was odd. Especially to see it in the work place where everything was always calm and collected. It was probably scary for most, however I lacked the emotion to feel fear. It's just something I've never had to learn, not yet.

"They are close, we need to go now." He said helping me into the main entrance of the ship. "Is it done?"

"They won't find a thing. The village knows somethings up, but no one has any idea, just town gossip. Naboo will be obliterated, but they won't have gained a thing but a mass murder of innocent people." I said catching my breath as the ramp behind us started to close. I kept my hand pressed against a wall for support as the ship took off.

"Good." He said letting go of me while he breathed a sigh of relief. "Supreme Leader Snoke and Kylo Ren are waiting for you in the conference hall."

"What did you just say?" I said stopping in my tracks, even as he continued to advance forward before noticing my hesitation.

I was a strong Force user, but what business did I have speaking with The Supreme Leader at all? I hadn't done anything wrong, nor anything all that right to get his attention. Maybe he wanted more information on this attack, but surely a higher up like Sloane and Hux would have more information than me. I was just an apprentice.

"He has requested a word with you regarding your future with The First Order." He said waiting for me to follow him.

I didn't want to ask why because I don't want him to think it scared me, but I was apprehensive. I'm not any high ranking officer, Sith Lord, or anything even close. I was second hand to General Admiral Rae Sloane, obviously someone important, but I was her apprentice. Even she herself has rarely directly spoken to The Supreme Leader, so why was I being summoned?

Why was he and his apprentice so interested in me? What about me was so special that I was suddenly granted to make a presence in front of him. I had an off feeling fill my gut I couldn't shake off. I definitely knew I didn't like it. Not one bit.

"Well then, let's not make him wait."