don't expect a happy ending

first kiss... ay tunay!

Rainvir's pov:

"sabay tayo para sweet.", Sweet said with a smile and took a sip of hot chocolate. She seemed to be enjoying her meal. Nang matapos niyang uminom ay nakangiti pa rin siya sa akin.

I just stood there staring at her. In awe of how sweet her smile is. Sweet does suit her afterall.

Tila naconscious naman siya sa ginawa ko. "what?",she asked with those wide eyes showing her innocence.

"I love you", was all that i was able to blurt out.

She blushed almost instantly. She was obviously suppressing a smile habang nanginginig ang kamay niyang kinuha ang cup niya at uminom. Nauhaw bigla? Haha. "i know." she said.

Disappointed naman ako sa sagot niya. Well what was i expecting? An I love you too? Gayong alam ko naman na gusto niyang pormal siyang nililigawan. Why does she have all those notions on how love should be like? Puro ideals.. But what can i do about it? It was just not my style. Para sa akin, isang malaking kaplastikan ang ligawan na yan. Pero im seriously considering to court her formally na. Hindi ba lagi ko na naman siya binibigyan ng oras ko? Hindi na naman siguro magiging masyadong malaking issue kung liligawan ko siya. Higit sa lahat, mahal ko siya. Mahirap mang paniwalaan, mahal ko talaga siya. Who would have thought that i would fall in love so easily?

God this girl. She doesn’t know it yet but the effects she has on me makes me think and do things i didn’t know I can.

"wala kang imik diyan.", puna niya sa akin with a slight pout on her lips. I think that was what pushed me over. The sight of her lips from a smile to a pout and ang konting amos ng chocolate drink sa labi niya.

I lifted her chin and i lean in towards her, nakita ko pa siyang umatras ng konti but then i leaned in more hanggang sa wala na siyang aatrasan because her back was pressed in tightly sa kanyang kinauupuan. Entirely closing the gap between our lips. Yes. I kissed her. And i know i will never regret this spur of the moment thing. Because her lips felt like heaven.

It tasted like cherry with a hint of chocolate. Sweet as her name, it reminded me of Christmas mornings. One to look forward to. Her lips were warm and soft and there was only so much of self restrain that i could impose as not to ravish her. She had her lips slightly opened because of shock (maybe) and i took that opportunity to deepen the kiss that we are now sharing.

I felt her arms around my nape. I am glad that she seems to be enjoying this kiss. I gave her lower lip a last gentle suck. "I love you Sweet.", i panted hard against her lips.

Sweet slowly opened her eyes and i saw how heavily she was breathing. "I", she said and hesitated for a moment. She pushed me away and stood up quickly. She made a run towards my room and i followed her. She shot the door right at my face. I guess i kinda deserved that. Pero bago pa man niya naisara ang pinto, nakita kong may umalpas na luha sa mga mata niya.

She was crying? Why? Was i a bad kisser? Hindi ko tuloy maiwasan ang maself conscious. Nope. Obviously, she's crying dahil i kissed her without her permission. Naalala ko tuloy ang sinabi niya sakin dati about how she wanted her first kiss to be. With fireworks and romance and stuff. Oh god. I wish i know what she is thinking.

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Sweet's pov:

"I love you sweet.", i heard Rainvir panted, his lips were slightly brushing mine habang nagsasalita siya.

I was breathing deeply. When i opened my eyes, our eyes met. He looked so sincere. As if mahal niya talaga ako.. "I." what was i supposed to say? That i love him too? This doesn't seem right! I still hate the thought of being just MU with him. I pushed him hard and i saw how shocked he was. I ran towards his room. He followed me but i was quick to shot the door closed dahil ayokong makita niya akong umiiyak.