I didn't want to love you but... || Fillie

Chapter 13

"Why are you here?" Finn says serious
"Don't see? I'm drinking water" she says with a sarcastic voice and indicates the bottle
"Yeah but we were talking" Finn rests against the hob
"okay" she says with a serious face but approaching to him
"If I did something wrong please-"
"It's this the problem Finn! You do nothing, always nothing and this frustrates me!" she shouts making Finn shocked
"W-what?"
But she decides that it's useless
"I have to go to sleep" she says and moves a step towards the salon but she can't move more that one step because he blocked her by her wrist
"No"
he stays in front of her, he looks into her eyes
"You asked first and I answered what you wanted because I know... I know you don't wanna do these things, it's not my fault okay? I'll talk with Caleb, is this better for you?" he shouts and pretends a laugh making her more nervous
"I don't want...what?!" she exclaims (of course with the right tone because their friends are still sleeping)
"Finn, it's not only this!" she shouts but then she bends her head and "it's... It's just I don't understand" she says with a soft voice
"The game was the game, but what about holding hands and I should have to remember you in this kitchen?" she looks at him with eyes that are begging at him for answers because she can't be like this anymore, now she wants to understand.
"A-and you remember on the sofa, um?" Millie inhales air
"it's not the game" she whispers and he doesn't say a word
"Finn" she moves a step more close to him
"what were happening? You could explain to me... Because I... I can't understand, I don't understand you"
He heard her and he sees her always more close to him
"I-I..."
he tries to give an answer but the only memory of those moments makes him to blush even his ears are red now, like tomatoes
"What Finn? ...What?" she says with a soft voice
"in that wood? Is that always stupid? That wasn't a game, right? What happened Finn? What's happening to us... Since we met"
she tries to meet his gaze but he can't look at her, just feeling so embarrassed, so afraid, so... maybe happy for what she is saying, so stupid...
He feels stupid, but to be honest he doesn't know how he really feels right now with that girl who is whispering those moments, their moments, like honey for him but this hurts too because he can't see her with that face
"one the sofa?" she still repeats because he doesn't talk and that hurts her, she talked now so she can't stop herself anymore
"I...I remember a-and Finn I...I don't know how to explain it"
And now who bends the head is her laying her eyes on her shoes
"I only know you're making me crazy" she whispers.

Sometime you have to follow your heart, you can't hear your mind that is saying "it's wrong. Escape from this. Say a lie". Sometime it's possible that your heart is right and you don't have to be afraid of the future. Things happen, making mistakes is right and you have to follow your heart, don't think people, don't think world, it's just you.

And now he understood what is right, what he should do.

Now is the moment, now.