Alpha and The Rogue

Chapter 33: Doubts and Worries

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Chapter 33:        

-A few days later-

"Lexi, you need to get an ultrasound" Richard said as he followed me out of the kitchen. He had been persistent for me to get an ultrasound. Richard has been following me around like a lost dog telling me what I needed to do.

"I don't have to do anything. I don't want an ultrasound. Not now. Not ever"

"Babe, come on, listen to Richard. You need an ultrasound. We need to see how the baby is doing"

"Both of you” I said turning around “Shut up. I am not having an ultrasound. This is my body and I can do whatever I want to do with it".  I stormed upstairs and into my room and slammed the door. I slumped down on the bed and brought my head into my hands. Why couldn’t he just let it go? Why does he have to pry into my past? I understand that he loves me, but he can’t know about why.

Knock

Knock

Lifting my head from my hands, I yelled "Go away Jay. I don't want to talk to you"

"Lexi, you need to open the door. We need to talk"

"I'm going to open the door because I know you’re going to drag me to the hospital"

"Baby, I promise. I won't do anything you don't want to do."

“Then why are you making me go to the hospital? Why can’t understand that I don’t want to go”            

“Talk to me. Isn’t that what we are supposed to do? We supposed to talk about things. You know I would tell something and you would listen and you remember what we said?”

“No judging”  

I walked over to door and slid down, so my back was leaning against it. I felt Jay do the same. He continued, softly

"What's going on? I thought we were better. I thought you could trust me?"

He sounded hurt. "Jay, I trust you, with everything in me. I trust you."

"So then tell me what's going on?"

I thought a deep breath and closed my eyes and re opened them. I could feel tears welling up in the back of my head.

"I was about 4. Freddie was gone on another alpha pack mission. Third one that month. I thought he would at least have the time to say hi to me or kiss Hannah, but he shot out the door like the house was on fire. I thought it was actual business. I didn’t know that he and Hannah were going through a rough patch. That night, I had a really bad nightmare and wanted Freddie, because he understood and always consoled me when I had them. But then I realised that he wasn’t here. Hannah wasn't in bed, so I went downstairs, hoping to find her. She wasn’t always at home. Sometimes after I went to sleep, she would slip out of the house and goes god knows where. But she never raised suspicion because she was always back before dawn. There were some rumor going around that she was having an affair with someone, but no one said anything because who wants to say something bad about the Alpha and his Luna? Back to the story, I went downstairs and saw her sipping wine. I was smart child or that's what everyone told me. I saw that half the wine in the bottle was gone. I knew she was halfway tispy or full drunk. The second she saw me, she threw her glass at me. That's how I got some of the scars on my back. I begged her stop, but she wouldn't. She kept on coming towards screaming 'you’re the reason why he's gone', 'if you weren't here, he would be here', ‘ we should just leave you somewhere and hope no one finds you’ and other stuff. That I could handle. She had flipped off the handle before. But it was when she threw the entire wine bottle at me and said 'you will never be the mother you want to be when you have a child and your child will disown you for the rest of your life'. I lost it. From that moment on, I didn't want to become a mother. She had ruined for me."

Jay whispered 'what happened after?"

"Umm I forgave her. I held my head high and forgave her. I let her believe that everything was okay, when it really wasn't. Along the way, we let it go and moved on"

"Kitten...."

I stood up and opened the door. Jay stood up as well.

"I don't want your pity, Jay"

"You should know, that isn't pity" he grabbed my arms and wrapped them around him. He cupped my face and slowly kissed me. He brought his hand towards my cheek and wiped a fallen tear which I didn’t know had fallen.

"I love you and you are going to make an amazing mother. I don't care what Hannah said or thought because she isn’t here to witness you proving her wrong."

I brought his mouth to mine and kissed him passionately.
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“Crap that’s cold!” I shrieked as Richard squirted out gel onto my flat stomach.  He and Jay chuckled at me. He placed the thingoamob on my stomach. I had tried asking Richard before but even he wouldn’t tell me. He told me go home and research. Doctors.  He turned the screen towards us as he moved the stick around my stomach trying to locate the baby.

Thump. Thump. Thump.

I grabbed Jay’s hand and squeezed it tightly. I looked over at him. My beautiful man had tears in his eyes and he looked at the screen. He looked down at me and smiled sweetly.

“Well it everything looks fine. Baby looks fine.  You’re about 4 weeks. But you know that this pregnancy isn’t like human ones. You would be popping bubba out around your 6th month. The pack is going to so excited for this. Congratulations”

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