Spoken Word #2 (2018-2020)

Dear Pain

My tears they cry out to earth around me enraged by the thought of pain striking my heels. It feels so dark no list of appeals for the pain that sits burning like a coal in my heart. She knew the name of pain. She hated its name. She wished she could only forget its somber tune through hall ways of lost dreams.Dreams that stood at a stand still

 lost in time.

Did she ever truly deserve to live?
Did the walking corpse she became, the only way to live?
She couldn't thrive in her home..
She couldn't forgive the unfairness of brutality.
All she ever did was survive.
What's a life worth living if only to survive?
musicality talented bowed to her by her words
BUT.. pain was NEVER heard.

Something within her begged to be healed
But she would have to let it go.
She didn't know how to survive without it.
What she doesn't know is the other her..
Has already arrived. She took a swan dive and shattered
everything she thought she was. She sent it into overdrive.
Exploding the facility of expectations.
Always ASKING if she had the permission to step on the foundation
of living to live, not living to survive!

In her frustrations she was done asking for permission!
She was going to LIVE and in RAGE she bashed anyone who told her NO.
She was done with NO!
Her relations that hurt her, will no longer be allowed
to have any permission to hurt her again.
When I told you, there was no room for you here.
I MEANT IT!
No more applications to be received.

The operation of requests and declarations of love were OVER.
Only confrontations of corporations of people demanding
her attention..

But NO MORE...She says in demonstration she waves her hand.
Sending them all to the garbage can.
If you think in your comprehension that you could EVER
Get my attention? let me close the tension between you and I pain.
You are nothing short.. Of an honorable mention at best.
In your terrible misled incomprehension I am simply telling you..
Fuck off.

Fuck off with every ounce of power within my soul.
fuck off to the shadows where you were born,
Fuck off to the moment you were created and you..
PUT that collar around my neck, and you forced me to be your slave.
Well the Slave is free, and the chain is in MY HANDS>
What a conversion...

The tables have turned now you are my bitch, Pain.
Through the ashes I have risen from hell and blood.
No submission..Any longer, no perversion of my heart.
From the ashes I have come fourth in flicking tongue's of thunder.
That will only ever leave you astounded in wonder.

No longer plundering the deep reaches of my heart,
For I have cast you out.. You tore me asunder.
But I have risen from the ashes.
Like a pheonix ready to burn her enemies ALIVE!
You and I? We will NEVER thrive.
You and I? well.. only one can survive, and I am taking
MY..CROWN..BACK!
Pain..You will forever.. Be..deprived.