Fall

chapter six

Adam couldn't help but to be mad at Samandriel. He's been lying to him this whole time. Adam couldn't trust him anymore.

Samandriel sat next to Adam and poked his cheek.

"Hey friend," he greeted and giggled. Adam didn't say anything, just looked down at his hands, twisting them in his lap. "Adam? Are you okay?"

Adam didn't say anything.

Samandriel felt his eyes grow hot as tears invaded them. Adam was ignoring him.

"Adam..." Samandriel trailed off. "Please don't ignore me," he whispered and Adam just turned the other way.

Samandriel stared down at his hands as he felt a small tear fall down his cheek.

He looked back over at Adam, who was just doodling in his notebook, not a care in the world.

"I knew I shouldn't have trusted you. Every person I've ever befriended leaves me. I'm so done," Samandriel muttered to Adam, before standing up and walking out of the classroom.

What did Samandriel mean he was done? Adam thought. Well, who cares, he lied to you.

Samandriel walked into the boys bathroom, locking himself in one of the stalls and leaning against the wall, letting his tears flow freely.

Why did everyone ignore him? Why did everything end so badly for him?

And he decided that tonight, he was going to jump.

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Adam didn't see Samandriel for the rest of the day. He thought he had went home, but in reality, Samandriel was on his phone in the bathroom for the whole day. Once the dismissal bell rang, he ran out of the school.

And now, he's sitting on top of the bridge, staring down at the dark water. He simply couldn't wait for it to swallow him whole and get him away from this stupid place. He didn't care that it was thirty degrees outside and he hadn't written any notes to anyone.

No one deserved a suicide note. They all left him. And he's going to leave them. The only difference between him and them is that he'll be gone forever.

He couldn't help but think about that one time Gabriel took him to a candy store and let him fill up the basket with whatever he wanted. He thought about how Michael used to sing to him every night. How Castiel took him to parks and played with him when he was little.

He thought about the nice family dinners they used to have. When Samandriel didn't need friends because he had his brothers.

The Thanksgiving before last, his mom cooked turducken. It was the best thing he's ever eaten. That's his favorite family memory. The turducken and the stuffing and the sweet potatoes with crunchy marshmallows melted on top.

He closed his eyes and could almost taste it.

He opened his eyes and stared off into the city lights. He would wait until dark to jump. That way, the last thing he saw were those damn city lights that he liked so much.

And when night fell, he was ready to jump. He pulled out a lighter and stared at the flickering flame. When he used this for the first time to hurt himself, he had carved his initials into it. S.N.

He stared at the flickering light a little longer, before sighing.

"I'll see you down there," he whispered, before dropping the lighter into the water, watching as it hit the water and disappeared.

Then he regretted it. After all this time, that lighter was the only thing that stayed with him. At least he'd see it when he jumped.

Snow started falling. Samandriel closed his eyes, thinking about how Adam always asked him when it snowed, "Do you wanna build a snowman?"