Temptation 2: Forgiving You ✔️

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Leah's POV

I shouldn't feel this way. I shouldn't want him. But I do. He gives me this, fire. One that Christian can't ignite. I love Christian, but there was always something about Nate that made me go crazy.

I force myself to pull away, I don't want to..but I do, for the sake of what's going on. A surprised look is planted into his face, as well as mine. Our faces are inches away from each other, nearly touching, and I force myself to look down, not wanting to catch his gaze again.

"That was uh," he clears his throat. "Something." He says. A slight smile appears on my lips, half guilty, full of regret, then again..

Happy that it happened. Then the thoughts begin to float around my mind.

Should I tell Christian? What will he think? Will he hate me for feeling this way about Nathaniel? Will they fight? Will I lose him? I don't want to. As much as I like Nathaniel, gosh.. I couldn't lose the first person that I've ever said I love you too minus my family.

"Leah?" Nathaniel asks, quietly. I like when he's like this towards him. Soft, and kind of innocent. Most of the time we talk he's this big bad guy who doesn't give a shit about anything, but right now..I think both of our feelings are just as vulnerable.

I slowly look up at him, as his places my chin between his soft fingers making me look up.

"Yeah?" I say, but barely. My head is spinning, and I don't know what to do..or say. If I say the wrong thing, then I ruin the moment, and I have no clue how that'll end.

"Are you okay? You're kind of..." He pauses. "Quiet." He says. I gulp, and shake my head. "I'm just..thinking about everything."

He nods, and gently traces his thumb along my cheek, before tucking the strands of hair behind my ear. "What is that mind of yours thinking?"

"How eventually I'll have to choose..." My subconscious adds.

"Nothing," I lie. A lot is going on in my mind that I can't explain, things that I can't say. If I do, they'll hurt you.

He nods, and glances into my eyes for a moment. "Do you want me to leave?" He spats.

What? I immediately look into his eyes. "No, I..." I pause. I don't know what I want in this moment.

"I want to leave." I say quickly, staring into his eyes.

He raises his brow. "Leave?"

"Just- take me somewhere, anywhere but this dorm.

A smile grow on his face, and he nods. "We can go to my place. How's that sound?" He asks.

"That sound good actually. I miss Kol." I say smiling, and remembering how loving his little brother is. He rolls his eyes. "Hopefully you don't try to bone him when he gets older, after all, he looks a lot like me." He says with a grin.

I chuckle and hit him in his chest playfully. "Oh don't. You're jealous because he's better." I say jokingly.

He raises his eyebrow, and then slowly pushes me back into the wall, with each hand on both sides of me. "Oh yeah? How do I prove that I'm better?" He says in a quiet, seductive tone.

I look at him up and down. "I think you've done enough." I say trying to avoid any sexual intercourse with him. I've already kissed him, I can't do anything that could jeopardize what I have going on now.

He smirks and backs away. "I'll meet you in the car." He says.

As soon as he's out the door, I grab my things, not everything, but enough to last me a night, and I walk down to his car, and I get in. He gives me this look, and I blush as he drives off.

I fear that I've already messed up.