Temptation 2: Forgiving You ✔️

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"Oh." I know, shitty response to such a deep, and heartbreaking conversation. I walked around just a little, before slowly plopping down on the Plastic wrapped couch. My foot rapidly tapping against the wooded floor. He motioned towards me, taking a seat, and turning his head towards my head. "Leah, I need a new start. I can't have my past eating up at me, and after dealing with everything that's happened with you and me." He let out a breath before he continued. "I have to do what's best for me. I've been such a wreck this past month, and I can't keep going through that. Not anymore." He finished.

I understood what he was saying. Did I like the words that came from his mouth? No. I sure as hell didn't. But I don't control his life, let alone anyone else's. I have to let him do what he needs to, for the sake of his happiness. It'll hurt, but I don't have a choice but too. I turn my head into his direction, placing a hand onto his, and he lightly rubbed the top of my hand. "I know. I know everything has been hard lately, and i'm sorry. As much as I want you to stay, I can't hold you back from something that could give you a better life."

"I care about you, and I just want you to be happy." I said. I was surprised I didn't cry. Given how much of a hard thing that is for me. He smiled, and nodded. "Thank you. But I know convincing Christian, and the rest of them that won't be the easiest thing." He said. Oh and was he right. I nodded in agreement with him, and pressed my lips together. "I'll help you. We could throw like, a going away party for you." 

For once I had a good idea. 

"Your favorite foods, just your friends, and we'll make the most of it." I said, trying to keep a good mindset about this. I knew that if he was going to do this, he'd do it right. Thats all I wanted. He looked at me with a smile, and then quietly chuckled. "Alright then. I can agree to one last celebration with you guys." My smile only grew bigger as he spoke, but then slowly drifted.

"Now, tell me about what's been going on in the last month with you." He said. I cocked my eyebrow as I looked at him, and inhaled as I ran my hands down over my knees. "Well." I started.

"I've been focusing on my classes, and weirdly Mari, and Alex have been keeping me sane. Update, Alex moved in with us. I didn't party, and things have slowly been getting back to how they used to be." I said. He furrowed his eyebrows as I spoke. "Yeah? And BJ?" He said. I tilted my head just a little before pausing. "He, and my parents are the last thing on my list to fix. Only because if I want to do this, I want it to be right." 

What I said was true. Before I even begun to get things back to being okay with my family, I had to get my head in the right state of mind first. He shrugged a bit. "Right, and Christian, and Nate?" He blurts. I couldn't even begin to figure out what i'd say to that. Shit. "We're..fine." I said slowly. He rolled his eyes. "I mean we're all, friends, I guess." A laugh forced itself from his lips. 

"Friends? You're like, in love with both of them. Don't think that I hadn't noticed, Leah."

But the thing is, that wasn't completely true. I didn't know what I felt, and I sure as hell wish I did or else I would've chosen a long time ago. "Understatement." I replied. He gave me a seemingly questionable look, as if he was confused. "So where are you going with this? With them. I mean you can't string them along forever. You know that, right?" 

I sighed and looked ahead as I processed his words. "Choose." The word roamed freely around my head as I sat there wondering. When the time came, by doing so, would it be the right choice for me? Only time could tell at this point.

AUTHORS QUESTION: 

Who do you think Leah should choose, and why? I'm curious ahaha!