you dumb, sad bitch

10:54pm

song: no shame by 5SOS

you'd think i'd feel bad for all the dirty things i do.
all the secrets i have.
all the boys that i've touched.
all the pictures that i've sent.
but no, i feel kind of good about it.
"you're kind of a whore"
anything to feel alive, right?
anything to feel like somebody sees you, right? even if it's only certain parts they care about seeing.
my ex always tries to make me feel bad about the things i do now that he's gone.
"can't believe that the girl i was in love with that barely let me touch her is out fucking somebody."
truth is, i actually cared about things like that when we dated. and to me, at that time it felt like all he wanted was sex and i wasn't gonna give him that. i had a little more respect for myself.
and anyways, i'm not just fucking some random guy. i have loved the guy i had sex with way longer than i did my ex.
can't guilt trip me when i have nothing to feel guilty about.

i have nothing to feel guilty about, right?