you dumb, sad bitch

3:34am

   song- tear myself apart by tate mcrae

    him
he's all i want
he's the only one that can make me feel anything at all.
all these other boys tell me everyday how beautiful i am, but it has no affect on me. they just feel like words with no meaning behind them. just emptiness.
but when he looks at me i feel like i'm gonna melt.
his words are the only ones i truly listen to with my full attention. the only ones i take into consideration.

i don't understand why i love him so hard, but at the same time i do.
he's so easy to love.
with his beautiful smile and a personality like no other.
he brings joy to every room he walks in.
seeing him makes my whole world light up with fireworks.
but, at the same time he talks to plenty of other girls way more than he does me.
and it hurts, but i know he doesn't mean to.
he's said it himself.

he feels responsible for my downfall, which, in a way, he is.
i can't find a way to love anybody as much as i love him.
my have my heart to him and i can't seem to get it back.
i love him
i'm in love with him
and only him.