you dumb, sad bitch

9:31pm

    song: moral of the story by ashe

he's got me blocked on snapchat now, i'm not really sure why, i never really texted him anymore but i'm kind of glad about it. it helps get over him faster.
   i say i'm over him, but i notice how i long for him at night. how i still dream about him. how i still think about him so much. i've been texting a different boy for about a week now, and i like him sure, but i think it's too fast. i don't want to lead him on. i like him, but at the same time i'm not sure what i want.
   maybe i don't actually miss M. that's what we're gonna call him. i mean, it's hard for me to just go from talking and seeing somebody every single day to never speaking to or seeing them again, so obviously i miss him a little bit but what if i'm just making myself miss him more. i'm doing it to myself. i've been perfectly fine for the last 2 weeks, and all of a sudden i just got hit with this wave of sadness. my emotions are so weird.
   i'm (hopefully) hanging out with Q tomorrow, i think that'll help me figure out how i really feel.