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by lolclifford_

by lolclifford_

song- 18 by one direction

i love you
i love you
i love you
i do

i could say it 1,000,000 times but it still wouldn't be enough to express how much i love you. i knew i wasn't going to be able to love anybody else but you. you're all i want. my body won't let me love anybody else, and i'm perfectly fine with that.

in my previous relationship, i was too scared to say the words "i love you" because i didn't understand how i felt, i was unsure of my emotions, but that's not the case with you. i know exactly how i feel about you, and i have for a very long time. i am truly, madly, deeply in love with you, H. you're my one and only.

i know, i'm clingy, and i'm sure it can get annoying, but i've been holding all my emotions in for years and i'm finally able to let it all out. i still haven't even been able to comprehend the fact that you're finally mine. it feels like a dream. none of this feels real. i had myself fully and completely convinced that you didn't love me back, i completely accepted that fate. i was willing to watch you love somebody else the way i love you. but you proved me wrong, thank god. you said it last night, that you were in love with me, and i swear i felt like i was floating. and the night before that, when A was asking you questions while you were drunk, and you said you wanted to be with me forever, and that i was the last girl you'll ever be with. i felt like i was gonna melt right then and there. i can't seem to find the words to describe how happy i am. for the first time in years, i'm truly happy again. i feel like i don't even need lexapro anymore. you are my happy pills. you're my sunshine; my other half, my heartbeat, my soulmate.

i really, genuinely hope i get to be the one you marry, and love forever. i hope we get to have the most beautiful babies and have the most beautiful life together. any life with you is a life well spent, even if i have to move to tExAs (which you know i hate.)

i love you, i have loved you, and i will continue to love you. this is the kind of love that you can't stop. the kind of love that consumes your entire being.

thank you for loving me back.

yours truly,