𝐼𝑘𝑒𝑚𝑒𝑛 𝑆𝑒𝑛𝑔𝑜𝑘𝑢 🌸 イケメン戦国

Your Love // Kennyo

**So I realized I have yet to write a solo story on Kennyo! So this might be a little rough. In my opinion, it's difficult to get his personality right and portray him in the way he truly is. So if this is terrible, I apologise. Hope you enjoy 🙂💘**

"Where is he?" I huff into the cold room.

Staring at the ceiling of an abandoned shack, overthinking everything in my whole life, putting words together like puzzle pieces, feeling proud of myself for realizing his feelings before even he did.

All of these thoughts are crowding my mind, filling up the small space with more and more regret.

Did he mean it when he said he loved me? If he really did, why was his voice filled with regret? How come his eyes were clouded over, like it wasn't really him pouring out all his emotions like blood spilling on the floor, he was weak. Weaker now.

Like telling me he loved me was like pulling the blade out of a wound, really killing him. Why is loving me so exhausting?

I need to know.

He sounded like he was holding something back, even after admitting the biggest feeling, love. What could that something else be?

Even though we have so much to talk about, he left me here alone to think about what he said. He left me... for a reason, maybe?

Maybe he wants me to over think? Maybe even be mad at him for leaving? But, I'm not mad, in fact, I crave his touch more. I need him more than ever before.

That is what Kennyo does to me.

At first sight, the scar on his face, traveling through the woods at night like a demon lurking in the shadows, I was afraid. I didn't want to stay and find out if his words were speaking truth or not.

But now, after spending months with him, and weeks away from him. I can't say I ever want to leave him. And I don't focus on his past, I focus on making his future better.

I had a breif conversation with the Tiger of Kai, Kennyo's former friend. He told me Kennyo used to hold the same innocent face, smile and laugh as he does with me, all the time.

Shingen told me he hasn't seen his friend as happy as when he's with me though, even when he thinks of me, he glows like the radiant sun, revealing more than light, but also heat.

After telling me to "be patient and wait for him to come around," I cant help but wonder how long will it take him?

When it comes to Kennyo, I can't stop myself from overthinking.

"You give me what the world could never.... You have given me unconditional love and forgiveness. So baby, let me return that."

"I want to be the only person loving you," he spoke with regret once more.

"Why?" I ask the harsh question too soon. "Why do you act like I'm poison? I'd like to think I'm good for you, Kennyo."

Turning his head the other way, I know he thinks the same about himself.

"-and you're good for me, Kennyo. I don't want you loving anybody else but me. So, please don't."

His gaze was still low. These one way conversations got me worn down. What else can I say to push through that wall, but not just push past it, hopefully destroy it, so that he can never build it up again.

"You should run, run while you still can."

"No-"

"I can't give you what you want."

"But Kennyo, you already have! Please, trust me. I can't fall in love without you. So please take my hand and just.. trust me? If you keep pushing me away I'll never be happy, and neither will you."

He stares at my hand like he might actually reach for it. "I'm so lost y/n."

"Then let me find you, Kennyo. I promise I will."

His gaze was locked on my extended hand. He blinked quickly and exhaled a few shaky breaths. He's just as good at overthinking when he wants to.

But he finally touches my hand, feeling it as if it were the first time. Gently, he laced our fingers together with a small smile on his face, this time no regrets clouded his mind, but instead I see compassion.