𝐼𝑘𝑒𝑚𝑒𝑛 𝑆𝑒𝑛𝑔𝑜𝑘𝑢 🌸 イケメン戦国

To My Favorite Ninja // Nobunaga Oda

Dear Sasuke,

Ending ties with Nobunaga was the hardest decision I've had to make. I knew it was something I would have to decide and so I made a pros and cons. When that didn't settle it, I prayed over it, dreamed about it and thought for a while maybe I wouldn't have to?

My heart still aches when I see him. My palms get all sweaty when we're close. Sometimes I'll wake up in the middle of the night and reach for him to be empty handed. I really liked the person he made me and the person he ended up becoming.

It was a long process falling for him, understanding him. He tried and tried so hard to get me, he fought like no man ever should have to for a woman. He never gave up on me... and I couldn't help but kneel to him in the end. I'll never find someone so true and kind as him.

I've come to find it's just as long of a process falling out of love. He turned my upside down world around, so much so I felt like this Era, this time, 500 years far away, was where I belonged. Without him.... I'm not so sure.

It was my decision to leave him. It was by my free-will, telling him goodbye, telling him I couldn't hold him again or kiss him anymore. Under all his fake smiles and ego, I know he still reaches for me too.

I never lied to him, ever. And I know he tried not to lie to me. He wanted nothing more than to make me comfortable in his arms. He wanted nothing more than me and in the end I left without a true explanation.

"If you have a problem with my commands, tell me," he would say... quite often.

I knew he loved me as much as I loved him when he told me that, what he looks forward to most when coming home from battle, is seeing my smiling face.

You know, it's wrong of me to want him, but I do. I knew in the end I would be leaving but I fell for him anyways. I got too close and tumbled. I should have listened...

But you don't understand what we had. The places he'd take me, the sweet games we played late at night. He fought to conquer all of me. He's not what you see him as, what even his vassals see him as.

I told him I would be running away, never to see him again. I told him I missed my old home but he offered to come with me, he said we could visit whenever. But we can't. I told him I wouldn't come back. Yet I lingered in his presence for days more.

I couldn't leave him, you see.

Either way I'm grateful for him. And I stayed up praying so many nights that things could have worked out better, for things to be different... but then I realized the only way for things to be different is if I make them different. I should have listened, but I'm glad I didn't.

Sasuke, I love him and so I chose to stay with him. I can't leave him alone, and I'm sorry for believing I could. That's why you're reading this letter.

I'm sorry you're reading this instead of hearing it from me personally. I wish I could have been there, but right now, I'm with him. I'll fight to get him back  if he doesn't accept me. I'll spend the hard hours he put in for me, back for him.

We won't be seeing again, but I wish you the best of luck. Thank you for welcoming me here in the Sengoku period and holding me when I was scared. Thank you for warning me and trying to prepare me as much as you could. I'll never forget my favorite ninja. I hope you adjust well back in the future ...

Sincerely,

(Y/N)