Stay Away From My Friends

chapter 22: sorry

Kellin's pov

Today is his birthday but since I'm a petty brat I'm sitting in my room crying. Yesterday he yelled at me.. All yesterday everyone was yelling and when I thought Oli would cheer me up he did the opposite.

I'm such a horrible boyfriend. I shouldn't have denied his apology.. I was just so mad. My legs are sore from walking so much and it was just a terrible day. Now its today and I'm scared.

I'm scared he's still mad at me for looking through his stuff. Scared he doesn't trust or like me anymore.

Me: apologizing over text on your birthday is very crappy of me but I dont want to see the rejection in person. I really like you and I'm sorry that I invaded you space. I'm not making excuses- well yes I am. I cant help it I just want you to forgive me. I honestly didn't think it was going to be that personal..

I thought that you didn't want me to go through it because it was like, you're porn stash or something.. but I should have respected you more. You really did hurt my feelings yesterday but I do deserve it.. I was having a bad day and thought you would cheer me up but I was stupid and ruined that..

wow this message is long but its important. I would have came over but I didn't want to get yelled at or bother you..

Well, I did get you a birthday present. If you forgive me I'll come over and give it to you?

I press send and wait with anticipation. When it says he sees it I quickly exit it and wait on my homescreen. I don't want him to see how desperate I am by seeing his text instantly.

When I says he texted me back I close my eyes and count to 100 before opening it.

Oli: I'm not mad anymore and I'm really sorry for yelling.. and yeah, come over. I want to see my boyfriend on my birthday. All is forgiven ❤❤❤

I smile and feel relief wash over me. I wipe my wet cheeks and type back.

Me: I've been crying all night lmao I should have apologized sooner. I'm on my way

Oli:

Oli: oh... wrong pic

Oli:

I snort seeing this. A small blush dusts my face and I go to the bathroom to wash my face from all the tears.

Me: we'll see;)

Oli:

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When I open the door I see Oli in the living room pointing at the tv says something about mincraft. I'm in his arms in seconds surprising everyone.

"Ha! I knew you two were a thing!" Gerard says and I blush. Matty looks disgusted and the other guys look a little surprised but not grossed out.

"Here!" I say now shoving a gift bag at him. Oliver is smiling and blushing a little and takes out the sonic shirt. If its possible his face lights up more.

"I love it, thank you," he says and kisses me on the lips in front of everyone. Not even a peck his but a full on 'let's start making out' kiss. I kiss back hesitantly but when he tries to deepen it I pull away blushing.

"Can we go watch a movie in your room?" I ask and he nods.

"Um, but yeah.. keep going down that cave," he finishes his words that I interrupted and the takes my and and we go upstairs. I hope it's not obvious that I made him come up here just so we can have sex again.

When he shuts the door I remember a few things I need to say in person. "I'm sorry about yesterday. I was being petty and-"

His lips connecting to mine makes me shut up. It doesn't last to long before he's pulling away. "I already forgave you and you forgave me so we are good now. What do you want to watch?" He asks and I blush. He thinks I really want to watch a movie.

"You undress me?" I mumble and he looks surprised but smirks.

"That sounds like the best idea ever," he says and then he remembers something. He frowns slightly and then looks guilty.

"Um.. but I did something that I'm not proud of," he say looking away.

"You can tell me," I say wanting to know. I dont like him being sad and he definitely looks sad right now.

"I um.. well.. kinda relapsed.." he mumbles. My eyes widen and I look at his wrists. I push up his shirt and he stands still as I look for selfharm marks.

I grab his sweatpants and carefully pull then down and my heart clinches as I see red lines on his thighs. I push his briefs up and examine the cuts. I then gently kiss beside the cut so I dont hurt him and look up at him.

"Thank you for telling me. I'm sorry if I caused if," I tell him quietly.

"I cant look at you while you're on your knees without imaging sexual stuff so how about you get up," he says and I smile. I get up and wrap my arms around his neck and kiss him. He grabs my hips pulling me against him and kisses me bad confidently.

I'm intrested in having sex with him again. Its exciting. I loved the feeling of him inside of me. It hurt but I liked the pain. Maybe this time since I know the basics it can be even better? Less nervousness will definitely make it more enjoyable.

So next chapter will be all smut and then the camping trip... anndddd maybe a few chapters more and then this book will be over..

Welp..

I hope you've been enjoying this.

Oh and after its 'over' I might still write in it? Like just extra scenes and stuff. But the plot will be over (for the most part) idk but after it's over I'll be HOPEFULLY finishing at least one book of mine.

I also have some ideas for other books..

Monsters, Stalkers, Models, amnesia, Strippers, robots, rapunzel, future, and FNAF are all on my mind so let's hope I dont get to crazy with this next book I'm planning.. I wonder which one I'll pick?