Stay Away From My Friends

chapter 37: chapter names are hard to come up with

Kellin's pov

I put on his hoodie on and crawl into his bed. I'm still in my sweatpants but I did take off my shirt so I wouldn't get to hot.

I have a lot of insecurities and issues but I know that Oli (for some reason) loves me and I hurt him constantly.  Now I feel bad for cutting yesterday.. I won't let him find out because I think he blames himself for me forgetting and stuff like that.

I just need to get it into my brain that he does love me and I am in a deep relationship with him. I need to just find a way to be comfortable around him. I feel way more comfortable with him than other people- unless he's trying to kiss me or hinting at sexual stuff.

He walks into the room and gives me a smile before going around the bed and getting in. "Why were you laying on the floor when I came in?" I ask curiously.

"I'd fall asleep if I lay in my bed so laying on the floor helps," he says making me more confused.

"Helps? Why dont you sleep?" I ask and he looks at his knuckles and then the ceiling.

"I have night terrors and sleep paralysis  so I'll end up screaming or doing something stupid in my sleep. It's just best if I don't sleep," he says looking sad and exhausted.

"Oh.. um are you going to be okay sleeping? Should I go?" I ask not wanting to make him nightmares because I'm selfish and wanted to be in his bed.

He looks at me and gives me a sad smile. "You chase away the demons.. when we sleep in the same room I never get those dreams," he says and my heart flutters and my face gets hot.

"Well.. I'll sleep in here more if it means you get to sleep," I mumble and he scoots into a laying position.  I do too but we face each other. 

"Thank you," he tells me. "Goodnight I lo- oh.. um. Sweetdreams," he says and my hear aches for him. He was about to say that he loves me but he doesn't want to stress me out.

"I like you. You said I didn't even like you but that's wrong.. you're really nice and care for me. I can't believe someone actually visited me for 2 years as I was unresponsive to everything.. it means a lot," I tell him and hug him.

He hugs back tightly and then I don't want to let go.. so I don't.. I cuddle up to the guy who isn't really a stranger. It's been a week since I met him for the 'first' time and I have this deep feeling that I should definitely stay by his side.

Soon I'm falling asleep in his arms comfortably.

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