The Life Of A Not So Famous Youtuber

Chapter 14: I Hate Life

*Melinas POV*

I fucked up real bad. He walked away angry, and so did I but devastated.

When I got home I looked in the mirror. Is this what I wanted? I was finally the slut that I never planned to be. I started to cry. I hated my life. All there was was fucking problems. And I was tired of this shit. It was time for it to end.

I crept across the hall into my bathroom. I grabbed a razor and took out the blade. I ran back into my room and started to cut myself. I couldn't deal with life at this point. I just sat in my room crying and cut myself.

I didn't know how to get Joey back and I didn't want to go to anybody for advice because I was sure that everybody probably hated me by now and thought that I was a bitch.

The cycle continued for a month now. Go to school, see Joey, get depressed, go home, cut and cut and cut.

While I was cutting myself I got my cast removed and my leg was healed. That was the only few days that I didn't cut myself.

I checked my phone and I had a text, it was from S.

*even though it is late I wanted to say sorry for your loss :(:*

*shut...the fuck...up*

*love you to ^>^*

I fucking hated whoever this "S" girl was.

I texted Joey.

*hey...*

*hey*

*i really need to talk to you*

*can I come over there then instead*

*yeah sure thx*

*np*

I left my cozy pajamas on. I was to tired to get changed. I was to tired to do anything lately.

When he walked in I jumped a little. He came out of nowhere.

His jaw dropped and so did mine.

We both changed so much.

His beard had grown in more and his hair was longer (but he still had the same hairstyle), and he dressed nice all the time.

*Joeys POV*

She looked horrible. Her room was a mess, she had bags under her eyes, and she was in her pajamas still.

"You can sit if you want," she gestured.

I sat next to her but it felt like I was a million miles away from her. I turned to look around and right next to me was a razor blade sitting on the nightstand. I turned to look at her and I instantly saw her wrists. She was trying to hide the fact that she had cut them.

I hated seeing her like this. Depressed, not caring about life. I missed the old energetic Melina who didn't cut herself. I felt horrible now. I didn't think she would do this to herself.

"Hey I'm so sorry," I apologized, I felt so bad that this is what such a beautiful, energetic girl turned into.

I leaned in. Hopefully she wouldn't back away, but she did.

"No Joey you don't have to do this," she said softly.

Things were very different. She ran out of the room. I didn't know what to do, I wanted to be with her but she changed so much, I needed help.