Saudade

Alone

Mina's Pov

"What are you doing?" He said as he saw me.

I just ignore him and continue walking outside but stop when someone holds my wrist.

"Mina please. Let's talk about this." I didn't look at him.

"Mina, p-please" I started to tear up again as I heard him sob. Stop this, please..

"Jimin let me go" I whispered but he didn't listen. He made my body face him. This time, I look at him.

"Let me explain."

"Jimin there's nothing to be explain. I already know everything. So there's no need to explain." I didn't yell at him but just talk. I couldn't yell because my voice is already faint because of crying.

"Mina please don't leave me." My tears finally escape. I took a deep sigh before I turn my back at him to leave.

I was about to go when I felt him hugging me from the back. I really couldn't take it anymore. I cried harder and tried to let go of his arms around me.

"Jimin let me go!!" I raised my voice but still, he didn't listen.

I did my best to release myself from him. As I got free, I face him, ready to slap him. But something stopping me. My hands are ready on the air. He crying hard too and he close his eyes getting ready for the impact.

"Do it. Please. H-hit me as m-much as you want. Please, I d-deserve it."

When I look at his crying face, a sudden memory came to me.

I saw a little Jimin is crying. It slowly fade and change into a teen Jimin crying. It then change into a present Jimin crying infront of me.

It really hurts me to see this memory of him. We've known each other for years and it's very hard to accept this.

Then a memory block my view.

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"Please don't leave me again. Not now that i need you...

I Love you MINA.. Please stay with me"
He whispered.

"I will stay with you Jimin. You already gave me a reason not to leave." I said in a calming voice.

"By answering me, it will make me the most happiest person alive. If you answer me, we will be together til the end. You will not sleep alone anymore. And you will not wake up that i am not by your side."

"Jimin, we are going to be a parents"
I hold his hand. I smile at him. He hug me again.

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Those memories made me feel weak.

I slowly lowered my hand from the air and just ignore him and made my way outside. This time, he didn't stop me. But I saw him and hear him crying.

I went out of the house, carrying my luggage and got inside Donghyun's car.

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Jimin's Pov

It's already night and I'm still here in the living room, still in my suit, eyeing the door, hoping my wife will enter walking inside with our son..

I mentally face palm myself. I'm alone again. I really don't know what to do.
They left me. My family is not coming back. My tears are just falling while thinking about it.

This is all my fault.

I stood up and got my keys on the table. I look around the room as it feels empty. So dark and lonely. Not like before that Mina will be at the kitchen, cooking while Chanseong is just sitting at the armchair, staring at his mother.

As I walk to the door, I felt something on my leg. I look down to see Ali, rubbing himself to my leg.

I sigh before crouching down to rub him.

"I guess it's just you and me"

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I got out from the car and entered to a bar. I really need this. I went inside and sat at the bar counter then order.

I'm started to think of how to make things right. I really need them. I don't know what to do anymore without her. I really fucked up.

Why did I do those stuff and forgot my family?
Why didn't I stop myself from doing those sinful things?

I ask myself. As I was drinking, someone sat beside me on the stool.

"Jimin?" I look at my side still in my straight face.

"What are you doing here? You're not suppose to be here at this late. Mina might get worried." He said. As I heard her name, a tear escape my eyes. That's when he notice something wrong.

"Son, are you okay?" I broke down to tears and cried for God knows how many times this day.

"Dad, I messed up" I felt him holds my shoulder and suddenly hugs me.

Somehow I really like it. Getting comforted by your father feels good. I really need it.

"T-they l-left m-me dad. My family is gone" I said sobbing in his arms.

"Shh.. Dad is here. We will find her, alright?"

Third Person's Pov

"Jimin that's enough. I will take you home now" his father said, taking the glass of gin in the table

"Okay. Let's go. My wife will get mad at me" he said in a drunkenly way

He sigh then carry his son to his car. He held him up because Jimin can't walk properly.

Yes, he is drunk.

His father drive him home. He already knows his new house since he's been collecting information about him from Minhyuk.

As they arrive, he look at Jimin at the side, trying to open the door. His eyes are now half open.

His father ran to the other side to help him get inside his house.

He carried him to his bedroom and made him lay down.

He took off his shoes and his suit to make him more comfortable.

He was about to go to the bathroom to get a wet towel to clean him when he heard a words coming from Jimin's mouth.

"Mina, where are you? Please come home." He said then went quiet. He passed out.

When he is done taking care of him, he walks around the house, exploring every room.

In the living room, he saw a big wedding picture. He smile at the thought that his son married to a kind girl. At the same time, sad since he didn't witness their wedding.

He went back upstairs and open a door as he assume a room. As he opens it, his eyes wondered around the blue painted babyroom.

He look at every picture that is hanging on the wall. Seeing his Grandson makes him so happy.

"He really looks like his father."

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