Good Girl // a. i.

Part 25: Alone Time

Emma's pov
Ashton drove with one hand on the wheel and the other on my thigh. I looked out the window, trying to figure out where he was taking me, but we were in the city, driving past the tall buildings and busy people.He turned into the parking lot of a fancy looking hotel.

"What are we doing here?" I looked at Ashton, confused.

"Luke said something about alone time and it gave me an idea." He wiggled his eye brows making me giggle. I made a mental note to thank Luke after killing him.

He opened the door for me and we walked into the lobby hand in hand. We looked out of place as two teenagers walking into an elegant four star hotel filled with grown ups in big sunhats and polo shirts.

After Ashton checked us in, we made our way up to our room. I was nervous. I looked over at Ashton who impatiently tapped his foot as the elevator went up. I had never done this before, but I wasn't scared. I knew I was ready, I just had no idea what I was do. The closer and closer we got to our room, the more flips my stomach did. Ashton opened the door to humble room. To be honest, I didn't pay much attention to the room because as soon as the door closed Ashton grabbed my hips and pulled me close to him.

"Someone's a little excited." I chuckled as I wrapped my arms around his neck.

"Thanks for today. I had fun." He smiled before kissing the tip of my nose.

"You're welcome." I squeaked as I scrunched up my face. He connected our lips, pulling me in as close as he could. I started running my hands through his hair. I pulled lightly, making him moan and he instantly took control. He tilted his head, making the kiss deeper. His hands ran down to my bum. He squeezed, making me jump. He smiled into the kiss before slipping his tongue into my mouth. He ran his hands back up my body under my dress. I stepped back so he could pull it off. Ashton also took his shirt off, throwing over his shoulder to the other side of the room. My heart was racing so fast, but I didn't want him to stop. We brought our lips together again and I ran my hands down his chest. He was gentle, cupping my face then leaving soft, light kisses down my jaw to my collar bone. He picked me up and started carrying me over to bed. He tripped, making us fall on the bed. "Smooth." I chuckled as he looked down at me with a pout.
"I'm trying here." He replied, barely a whisper. He slowly untied my bikini top, exposing my upper body. He continued leaving kissing down to my stomach. He began to untie my bikini bottom and I suddenly covered myself, feeling uncomfortable with the idea that I was completely naked. He smiled before moving my hands. "You're beautiful." He whispered. He took off his swimming trunks and grabbed a condom.
"Luke told you about alone time didn't he?" I asked, knowing that would be the reason he had protection with him. "He might have given me a hint." He shrugged before climbing back on top me and bringing our lips together. We started something that made me love him even more. He wasn't the only one looking at me with such love and intensity. I was able to give him that look back. That look he had when he was playing, I understood it better now.

The next morning, I woke up with Ashton's arms around me. I turned carefully to face him. His hair was all over the place and sticking out awkwardly, which was adorable. I smiled pulling a couple strands back. He was mine and I was his and it felt too good to be true. I was happy, laying there with him, when I remembered I was leaving tomorrow. I froze. All of a sudden this realiztion was too much for me. I quickly got out of bed and got dressed. I headed for the roof. It was still early, meaning the hallways were empty. I took the stairs, needing to take out some anxiety. My legs and lungs were burning as I opened the door to a roof top pool. The cool air hit me and I felt like I could breathe again. I walked over to the farthest side of the roof top, away from any people. I didn't want anyone to find me. I could have stayed, to be there when he woke up like in the movies and be all happy and everything, but this wasn't a movie. As much as I loved him and as much as I wanted everything to be perfect, it wasn't. I wasn't mad at the situation we were in either. We were both living out our dreams. We came so far from where we were when we first met. I was lost and angry, willing to do anything for anyone to notice I was unhappy, and he did notice. Now, I know I can never be that person again. I never had to be. I had everything I could ever want. I needed to be alone because that's just what I did when I wasn't sure about something. I knew I loved him. I was sure about that. I just wasn't sure how I felt about leaving. I didn't know how he would take it after he blamed himself for Kristen and was a mess when he left me. I didn't know if I had the strength to leave him.
Ashton's pov
I woke up and she wasn't in my arms. I looked around hoping she would be in the bathroom or making breakfast, but then I realized this was Emma. She wouldn't be doing something normal or expected. I got up and got dressed and headed across the street to Starbucks. If anything cheered her up, it was coffee. I remembered seeing her walk into the coffee shop the morning after I met her and I was just so confused. The girl I thought I knew turned out to be the total opposite. I smiled a little, remembering her annoyed with me.
I grabbed our coffees and went back to the hotel. She would be somewhere either dangerous or where we weren't allowed. The roof top.
Emma's pov
My thoughts were interrupted when I heard someone clear their throat. I looked up, not expecting to see Ashton, holding out a cup of coffee.
"How did you...and is that coffee?" I asked, smiling a little.
"I just know you so well." He shrugged. I took the cup, gulping the warm coffee down, letting the caffeine wake me up. "Thanks." I said as he took a seat next to me.
"No problem." He smiled before taking a sip from his cup. I didn't know what to say after that. I just looked out again, sipping my coffee hoping he would say something and he did,"What are you doing up here?" It seemed like he was afraid to ask. Maybe he was scared of my answer.

"Just needed to think. Were you mad I wasn't there when you woke up?" I asked. I felt bad I didn't stay, but he shook his head before giving me a small smile.

"No. Just wanted to make sure you were ok. You still runaway and I just came up here to catch you." "I'm sorry." I said, looking down at my feet. I guess I didn't change much then.

"No, it's ok. I'm just glad you didn't get too far." he said as if it were no big deal, which just made me feel even worse.

"I just needed to think." He just nodded and sipped his coffee.

"I'm leaving tomorrow."

"I know." he replied.

"And I realized that even if we are both going to be on opposite sides of the planet, I am actually genuinely happy." He looked at me surprised, as if he wasn't expecting that answer.

"I'm guessing that's not what you were expecting?" I chuckled.

"Not at all, but I'm so fucking relieved you said that." He put his arm around me, bringing me close to him. I hugged him back before saying, "This is going to work out. You're not only my boyfriend, but my best friend. You make me happy and as long as I have you waiting for me when I get back, I'll be happy where ever I am."
"I honestly thought you were going to break up with me. I thought you were running away. You have no idea how happy I am to hear you say this." He kissed the top of my head and I just smiled, resting my head on his shoulder.
"I thought so too, but it didn't feel right."
"I love you."
"I love you too."

Dedicated this chapter to @andydwyer! Thank you for reading and voting. You have no idea how much I appreciate it :)

Ok I'm going to go to church and pray after writing that. I know it's not much, but I didn't want to go too much into detail. Hope this is good enough. Please don't hesitate to comment or vote I would really appreciate it. Love you guys!