Good Girl // a. i.

Part 29: Breakfast Burritos

Emma's pov
You know that feeling when you wake and for a second you don't remember and then it all hits you? That's what happened that morning. I woke up with my head on Ashton's chest and his arms wrapped around me and I knew in a few hours I wouldn't be in this position for a long time. I looked around at the other boys and laughed a little. Luke sleepily pushed Calum's leg off of him. Michael rolled over and cuddled next to Luke and Calum was just spread out like a starfish.
"Oh god this is why I never sleep with these guys." Ashton chuckled pushing off one of Luke's arms away from him.
"It's kinda cute." I replied.
"Luke whacked me with his arm like 4 times last night." He pulled me closer to him.
"I kinda wish we could just stay here." I whispered.
"Me too."
I didn't say anything back. A sad feeling began to grow in my chest and it almost physically hurt.
"Hey." With his finger under my chin, he gently made me face him.
"Don't be sad. Today shouldn't be a sad day, ok?" He said with a sad smile.
I just nodded before burying my head back in his chest.
"Good morning!" Michael exclaimed, stretching his arms and legs, hitting Luke in the face.
"Oh shit sorry man." He giggled, obviously not very sorry.
"I had the best sleep." Calum yawned.
Now everyone was awake and I wanted nothing but to keep sleeping. Eventually, we all got up and made our way back to the bus wrapped in our blankets like burritos.
I plopped down on my bunk face first, not wanting to change or get ready. I wanted to waste as much time as possible. I needed to procrastinate just to have Ashton for a little bit longer. Ashton started to change into some clean clothes. He whacked me with his t-shirt lightly.
"Come on. Stop being lazy." He giggled.
"No. I think I'll just leave like this." I joked.
"Hurry up or you're going to be late." He warned me.
"I don't want to go." I whined.
"You have to." He said poking me.
"No. I really don't want to." I said seriously. I heard him stop and I instantly regretted saying anything.
"What do you mean?"
I didn't know what to say. I never thought I had the guts to tell him because I knew he would make me go. It was almost like he wanted me to go.
"I just...I've been thinking and-" But he interrupted me.
"Em, you have to go."
"So you want me to leave then?"
He sighed as he ran his hand through his hair.
"Of course I don't. I really don't want you to go, but you have to. You need to do what you love. Find yourself like you always wanted to. " He sad as he sat down next to me.
"What if I already found myself? This week, just being with you and with the guys....I feel like this is it. This is what I want." I shrugged, not looking at him. I couldn't look at him.
"This can't be what you want. Just following me, watching me do what I love. I'm not going to force you to go, but I don't want you to wish you would have gone. When you come back you can tour with us again. It'll always be the same thing, but this trip to Africa isn't going to wait for you."
I stayed quiet, taking in his answer. I hated that he always knew the right thing to say.
"This fucking sucks." I finally said causing Ashton to laugh.
"Just as long as you come back to me I don't care where you go." He looked over at me, his eyes watery.
"I might get eaten by lions..." I joked.
"Ok, I need you to come back in one piece. Please don't get eaten my lions or do anything dangerous. Follow the rules, please?" He put put his hands together.
"I will try my hardest. I can't promise anything though." I chuckled.
"I'll take what I can get." He shrugged.
Then, Luke walked in with tears in his eyes. He looked away so that I wouldn't see.
"It's time to go." He announced.
"Awww Luke are you crying?" I got up and ran to give him a hug, but he pushed me away.
"I hope you feel guilty." He said crossing his arms.
"I'm sorry. I'll be back soon though." I punched him lightly in the arm.
"Yeah, yeah whatever." he mumbled before walking away.
"You guys aren't very good with good byes, huh?" I asked, turning to Ashton. He sniffled and rubbed his eyes quickly so I wouldn't notice.
"Not really." he shook his head as he laughed.
"So much it not being a sad day."
Ashton's pov
She zipped up her backpack and flung it over over her shoulder. She looked around, making sure she had everything before turning to me.
"That's everything."
The memories those words came with stung a little. I said the same thing not too long ago before she kicked my ass in video games and covered me in pepperoni.
"Let's go then." I said before clearing my throat. I was trying really hard not to cry. I needed to show her I was going to be ok while she was gone even though I knew I wouldn't. I knew that the minute she disappeared through those doors and stepped onto that plane my life would revolve around how much time I had until I saw her again. All I would ever do is count down days, minutes, and seconds until she came back because I wanted her to come back to me. I want nothing more than for her to physically come back to me. I knew it was only three moths, but a week ago I went through the worst three months of my life and I had a feeling the next three would be a close second. I couldn't go see her since the tour ended the same day she came back. We wouldn't be able to see each other until then.
I grabbed her hand and we made our way out to the car, where the boys were waiting for us. She let go and ran to Luke, wrapping her arms around his neck. He hugged her back with the same affection.
"Why are you hugging me like you're saying good bye? We're all coming with you to the airport." He chuckled.
"Really?"
"Thought we would have one more adventure before you left." Michael smiled.
"Which means only one thing." Calum said, smiling.
"BREAKFAST BURRITOS." Michael yelled at the top of his lungs.

I don't want her to leave because then this means it's going to end. I honestly don't know how many chapters are left, but there will be an epilogue...or I might do multiple epilogues to continue their story a little. I am so sorry for not updating sooner, but I've just been busy with Christmas and stuff. I hope everyone's having a good break and NYE. Please don't hesitate to comment or vote. I'd really appreciate it. Love you guys.