Kaitlin Winchester
The Crew was playing their video games when I soon arrived. Lily was already sitting on the bed. When my presence was known, Austin had paused the game so they could all hug me. Austin tried to kiss me, but I just turned my head. I wasn’t in a mood anymore because Austin still hadn’t talked to me about us. I couldn’t let someone who wasn’t my boyfriend kiss me. I wasn’t like that.
Everyone noticed the tension between us, but I shrugged it off as if it was no big deal. It wasn’t either. Austin and I aren’t fighting or anything. I’m just in a bad mood about this whole thing.
Plus my grandma was just getting mad me for not doing the dishes last night but I was exhausted. I was exhausted with everyone and everything. I just wanted my parents again.
I found myself getting up and just leaving Austin's room in a rush because I could feel my eyes get teary. I went straight to the kitchen, seeing Mrs. Mahone who looked at me worried. I immediately rushed to her and she got up, pulling me into her arms for a motherly hug. That made me miss my mom even more and I started to cry softly into her arms.
"Ssh," Mrs. Mahone whispers, rubbing my back softly. I was so into my sobs I didn't know Austin was downstairs watching this all go down, until Mrs. Mahone let me go and Austin held me tight.
Austin didn't dare let me go. He let me cry into his chest, letting out all my emotion. I hated showing I was weak. I hated crying so much, but Austin didn't mind. Austin just wanted me better and I think he knew he was the cause for some unhappiness. I was just confused on what we were. He'd never asked me or told me how he felt.
"Can you give us a moment, Mom?" Austin asks, and I can hear his mom whisper an answer back and her footsteps make their way out of the kitchen. Austin moves back from me and I force myself to look up at him.
Austin smiles softly, moving his hands up to wipe my tears with his thumbs. He does it slowly, not leaving his eyes from my own.
“You okay?” he asks, and I just shrug. I wasn’t even sure if I was okay. I didn’t feel okay, but when Austin’s around I feel a little better.
“Talk to me…” he whispers, pulling me into his strong arms and rocking me back and forth. I feel so vulnerable in his grasp, and it’s hard to deny his loving gestures.
“My grandma got mad at me, and I just miss my parents, Austin. And you, you haven’t even made a move and asked me out. But I just don’t wanna force you. I don’t wanna force us, but I don’t wanna lose you like I lost them,” I let out, trying to wipe my tears, but Austin did it himself once again.
"I'm sorry," Austin says, sighing as he looks down at me. I don't dare interrupt, knowing he had more to say. "I just... I've been rehearsing over and over again of how I was going to explain everything to you. I just don't know how to start it. I don't know what you'll say. I just... It scares me that I'm given this opportunity and I don't know what to even say because I don't deserve you after what I did, after all that's happened. But I have to try..."
Austin moves away, taking both my hands into his. I still don't speak, just waiting for him to talk up once more. This was finally happening, but was I ready for it?
"Listen, Kaitlin, I really like you. Like a lot. Take my word for it, and I left because... I left because..." He says, his voice getting shaky. I squeeze his hands, wanting him to continue. I really was dying to hear the words from his mouth. "I didn't wanna watch you fall in love with someone else besides me, so I was being selfish. If only I knew you really cared about me too. Both of us knew we cared about each other the same day and we were both blind to see it. I just... I'm crazy about you, Kaitlin. It's always been you, and I was stupid to deny you. I was stupid to think you didn't care for me too. Also because of the accident I don't want to rush this, but I want to call you mine. So will you be my girlfriend?”
I look at him, smiling softly at his cute little speech. He got so nervous and shy showing me he really did try to rehearse this. He paused a few times during it, trying to figure out the right words to say. This moment sort of just makes me forget about my problems because I had him around. He some how could make me smile just by talking.
"Yes, Austin. I want to be your girlfriend," I say to him, making a smile appear on his lips. He didn't say much after; he just leaned down placing his lips onto mine. Austin… It’s like he could fix me.
When he pulled back he spoke, "We don't have to tell the Mahomies right now because I know it'll be a lot on you. But I don't want to hide this either. I wanna be able to take you out like I would with any normal girlfriend. I don't want this to be different between us."
I know he wanted to tell everyone we were dating. I know he wanted to boast about me. I mean, I didn't want to admit it so soon because of the hate. Austin noticed my hesitation too, just nodding his head and pulling me to his chest.
"It's our little secret."
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Finally he asked her out! Yay. Go check out my other stories called Hidden and The Gift thanks!
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