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Twenty-Five

Kaitlin Winchester

“Austin is about to go in surgery,” Lily tells me, but I shrug her off. I just watch the Christmas movie on the television. Lily has to sigh at the sight of me, but at this moment I don’t care. He kept this from me to have me freak out this morning about his surgery that was in a few hours.

“Don’t you think you should go support him, Kaitlin? You know he just didn’t want you to freak out for too long because in the end he wanted you to be there. You know that he loves you. You were just both mad,” Lily says, and I roll my eyes.

“I’m sure he meant it.”

“Once again you’re stupid. Kaitlin go to him. I’m about to head over,” Lily says, turning off the tv to get me to look at her. I do so too, actually thinking about it because I know Austin is nervous. Me freaking out probably made it worse, and he won’t be able to talk for a while.

“I doubt he’ll want me there,” I say, sighing.

“Alex told me he keeps saying how he misses you, and he feels bad, and he wants to leave to make it up to you. But he thinks you’re too mad to talk to him and he’s not allowed to leave. Just please, we should go,” Lily says, looking at me with these pleading eyes.

I have to sigh too, getting up from the bed. I slide on Austin’s hoodie before making my way behind Lily. Marina and Rob were waiting for us in the lobby and Marina had given me a small hug in sympathy. Even Rob gave me a sorry look but I just tried to shake it off. I guess everyone heard Austin and I fighting or they heard about it. 

When we get in the car I notice Austin had posted a picture, and he didn’t look the happiest. I had to blame myself for it because I was wrong and I had started this. I should’ve just seen he was protecting me. I had to blame myself for the fight and I also saw some truth in his words. People always assumed Austin and I never really had any problems but we did. We just kept it hidden.

Now everything was out on the table, and it felt nice to let it out. But I also knew what I had said was completely wrong of me. I know he meant to do good by leaving, but it still hurt. I still continued to love him, and he did the same. So in the end love should be all that matters and it is.

@KaitlinWinchester: @AustinMahone i’m on my way so wait for me? if you can’t i love you and i’ll be there when you’re out

It only took about a few seconds for Austin to tweet me back

@AustinMahone: @KaitlinWinchester i’ll make sure to wait for you beautiful and I love you, and I want my last conversation for a while to be with you

@Robert15Jgod: @AustinMahone @KaitlinWinchester is smiling at her phone so I think you’re gunna get some later

“Robert!” I say, hitting him. He just chuckles just as Joe pulls up to the hospital. I immediately hop out, wanting to just see my boyfriend and make up already. It was only a few hours and I already had given in to forgiving him. And he had too. 

I head inside, asking for Austin Mahone. They told me he was in the back room about to go into surgery, but when I told them who I was they allowed me to go see him. I guess someone told them he was waiting for me. So a nurse leads me to his room.

When the door is open I find Austin sitting in his chair, his mom right across. Austin is in his red pajama pants, and a black tank top. His beanie still on his head. I had to admit he looked great. When Michele saw me, she excused herself leaving Austin and I alone. I just run towards him, sitting myself on his lap, while he wrapped his arms around my waist to hold me tight. He kissed my head a billion times, making sure to get through to me how sorry he was. I kissed his collarbones a bit, sort of sad I was without him for only a few hours.

“Baby, I’m so sorry,” he lets out, and I just shake my head. I continue to kiss down his arms, and then his cheeks. He just chuckles a bit at the sight now.

“It’s okay. I’m sorry too,” I let out, but he shuts me up with this long kiss that I didn’t realize I was so needy for.

“I have something for you. An early Christmas present,” he says before reaching over to grab his huge teddy bear bigger then the size of me. It smelled of Austin too, making me instantly smile. I push it aside though and just hug Austin so tight.

“I love it, and I love you,” I state, and he even brings me close to him. He lets these kisses linger on my neck, and before I realize it he had left this hickey. I have to groan at the fact because now everyone would be questioning me about it.

“Gotta make sure everyone knows that even though I’ll be out for a while you’re my girl still,” he says, and I just laugh a bit. I place a final kiss on his lips, but that’s not enough. He turns me around, making me straddle his waist. He kisses me hard, placing his hands to underneath my butt while mine went to his hair. I took off his beanie, placing it on my own head. I then let my fingers run through his cute curls.

I could feel his smile in the kiss, but I didn’t hesitate to bite on his lip a bit. I even pull back on it a little, and when he squeezes my butt I know I was turning him on. When I kiss him once again he lets his tongue slip into my mouth. A part of me knows I have to stop, but I know I can’t. Instead I’m forced to stop when I hear hoots and hollers come from the door.

I pull away to hide my neck into Austin’s chest, and let my cheeks heat up in embarrassment. When I look over I find Lily taking a few pictures of us. I just hide my head back into Austin’s neck.

Everyone seemed to come in soon, and we all erupted into conversation to try and keep Austin distracted. I just listened to them all talk, and just would kiss Austin’s neck every once in a while when I would feel him tense up.  He would tense up whenever a nurse came in to give him a shot.

Soon the time I had come so I just look into Austin’s eyes, “You’re going to be okay.”

“But what if my voice does change?”

“It won’t, Austin. You’re going to be fine, I promise you that. I love you, okay? When you come out, and wake up I’ll be right there,” I promise him, and I meant it. I give his hand a tight squeeze, and he kisses me one last time before his surgery.

I start to slide off his beanie, but he stops me.

“Wear it until I get out, okay?” he asks me, and I nod my head. I get off his lap, and hold his hand until the last minute until I have to let go. Austin stops me for a moment, getting a good look at me before letting go of my hand.

‘I love you’ he mouths to me.

‘I love you too’ I mouth back, before heading on my way out. I am immediately bombarded by Lily gushing to me about how cute we are. She even sends me the pictures of us sucking our faces off and also us cuddling. I post the picture of us cuddling and I caption it this long cute paragraph that was well needed.

I know you just got into surgery and I know that you won’t be able to talk for a while so I want you to know that I have had all my best memories with you. I’ve grown up with you, and I spent most of my life falling in love with someone as amazing as you. You make me the happiest girl alive and you always have. Every single day you put a smile on this face and I hope I do the same for you. I love you a lot and I hope you remember that because without you I wouldn’t be who I am today. I am so grateful to have you in my life. I don’t think I would be this happy as I am in this very minute if it wasn’t for you. And as you go into this surgery just know that your beanie will be on my head and I’m not going to take it off. And that big bear you gave me that smells of you I promise I’ll be cuddled up to that thing just imagining it’s you. I already miss you, and I literally just saw you two seconds ago. But without you I feel incomplete and I become this cheesy person. And since you get your tonsils out and you can’t talk I’ll make sure to annoy you 24/7 and you can’t make me stop. And I’ll sing to you every five seconds. I’ll make sure to keep you happy and distracted while you suck on popsicles and I’ll make sure to kiss you and you can’t stop me because you can’t talk. Ha sucks. But ily. Anyways I love you a lot Ameezy and stay strong. I’ll be out here waiting for you. @AustinMahone