Beyond the beauty you can see (onhold)

Chapter 13

Trishia Khyleigh

Life is incredible. It is indeed bumpy but it is a part of our process growing up as a person. Committing mistakes, regrets and forgiveness. It is a cycle. Babalik at babalik ka sa simula kapag tapos na. Sasaya ka, parang wala ng bukas pero dadating pa din ang pagkagat ng dilim na tatapos sa iyong maliwanag na araw, na-aabot ka pa din sa punto na malulungkot at masasaktan ka but at the end of the day, a sun will rise once more. Darkness will disappear as the rays of sun shines and everything will be bright once again. That's how life work, you just have to strive and fight in order to see the light of tomorrow.

Lolo Anton told me to rest for a while. It's been two weeks. We are all tired because of what happened. I stayed at Casa for father test. I hate hospitals.

My week passed peacefully. I'm happy of the gift of another life for me. God knows how happy I am however I don't know how to convey. God gave me another chance to live. And everything seems fine and peaceful, I'm thanking God for that.

Sa pagkaka-alam ko, starting on monday, I meant was today. The first week of July. The foundation week will start. Hindi ko lang alam kung hanggang kailan but siguro a week or beyond that? I was curious about it but not in the mood to ask those jerks.

Hindi ko alam ang buong ginagawa nila sa foundation week. Basta sa pagkakaalam ko babagohin daw this year ang tradition kung papayagan ang government body ng mga board at faculty sa kanilang pinaplano. Mahirap din kasing buwagin ang tradisyon, lalo na kapag nakasanayan na nang lahat.

My brother think that I'm a numb to believe at his lies, that fucktards! He's their almighty Alpha then government body my ass. Utak niya pulbo! He under estimated me?! How dare he?!

The school is under the power of Alpha, the school faculties, staffs, government body even if the board will take orders from the alpha. Who is that fucking alpha, hindi ba siya? Hirap talagang kausap ang bobo!

"Princess, breakfast. Go downstairs na. It's your foundation week, hurry up. Gusto mo ba'ng malate sa unang araw mo sa foundation week?" Mama suddenly open the door out of nowhere kaya gulantang ako bumaling sa pinto ng kwarto ko. She smile and I nod. Nakakagulat naman siya, aatakihin ata ako sa puso sa gulat dahil sa kaniya.

"Opo. Wait a second." Tugon ko sa kanya at binilisan ang pag-aayos ng mga gamit na dadalhin ko. Napabuntong hininga ako at tumingin ulit sa pinto, wala na siya.

Hindi man nila alam pero minumura ko na ang sarili ko pati sila lalo na si kuya Laufer ngayon, because of them, male-late ata ako. Baka dahil sa taranta ko, malimutan ko gagawin ko, nakakabadtrip isipin. As much as possible, I want to look and act normal even if I'm too different to be one. Hindi man iyun ang kaugalian ko but I'll try to 'cause I needed too.

Bumuntong hininga ako bago buksan ang pintuan katulad ng ginagawa ko palagi. Iniiwan ko lahat ng pasanin, sama ng loob at galit ko sa kwarto at lumabas na magaan at masaya na parang walang problema. Bumaba agad ako at bumungad saakin sina kuya Ford, kuya Fred, Laurieh, kuya Harviell as they call but I commonly call him kuya V and my parents. Tahimik naman ang ilang kasambahay sa gilid.

They are eating breakfast silently, unusual tho. Kuya V and Laurieh greet me sweet good mornings before they continue to eat, I just nod. For sure, Laufer is still sleeping that brokenhearted man is a pain in my ass! For years? Seriously? Is it still love? 'Cause it's misery for me.

"Pst, kain na. Anong tinatayo-tayo mo dyan." Sabi saakin ni Kuya at tumango ako. Inilagay ko muna sa sala ang gamit ko bago nagmadali na tinungo sila sa dinning area. Gutom nako, badtrip pa.

Gusto ko sanang buksan ang refrigerator para tignan baka may naiwan kahit isang chocolate man lang doon pero alam kong wala na talaga. Di ako gutom ngayon kong mayroon pa kagabi. I should buy and keep it on my room next time. Delekado lagi dito sa kitchen.