Save Me From Myself

Difficult Decisions

Ryland's POV

After arriving at the hospital they immediately took Dani into surgery. Watching her still body be wheeled down the hall away from me was the worst thing I've seen. Not knowing if she's alright or if she ever will be.

I was pacing in the waiting room when the others arrived. Finn immediately came up and gave me a hug. "How's she doing man?"

"They took her into surgery as soon as we got here. I haven't heard anything since." I say worriedly

Gage came up and put his hand on my shoulder squeezing it comfortingly. "Why don't you take a seat. No use worrying when we don't know anything."

I nodded my head and took a seat. Looking over to my right I see Adley comforting Sloan who's crying. Finn is bouncing his leg impatiently and Gage is zoneing out on his holder hands. Everyone's worried about you Dani, you have to make it out ok.

Just then a doctor comes walking around the corner. He's taking off a surgery cap and making eye contact with me. I jump up and walk towards him

"Are you here for Ms. Shey?" He asks

"I am." I nod quickly

"Seeing as she has no relatives on file and we must have a decision made quickly, we need you to make it" He explains

My heart sinks. "Decision about what?"

"Ms. Shey is very weak. Her body is severly dehydrated, he arm is fractured in two places, and infected. We need to operate immediately in order to save her arm. But we are unsure if her body can withstand the procedure." He starts to say and mind stops working

Don't ask it, please don't ask me "We need you to decide whether to act now and try to fix the arm or wait, make her body more stable and then have the arm removed."

"What! I can't decide that! How am I supposed to make that decision. She should be the one to make it!" I start tugging at my hair frantically

Finn puts his hand on my shoulder, I look at him and he nods. I have to do this.

"Save it. Save the arm." The doctor nods and then hurries off.

I fall back into my seat, run my hands down my face and then punch the arm rest. What if I just chose wrong, what if my decision kills her.

"Why did you choose that! You heard the doctor her body is to weak! You're going to kill her!" Adley screams at me.

"I know ok! I heard him! But removing her arm would definitely kill her!" I scream back. She looks at me confused but still furious.

"Taking the arm would take her ability to play music. Music is the only stable thing she has left in her life. I couldn't take it away from her." I sigh out.

Adley looks at me shocked. Then she drops to the ground and begins to cry too. Gage goes over and picks her up sitting her next to him, shushing her.

"You made the right decision man. It was a tough one but you did what was best for her." Finn slings his arm around my shoulder

"But what if my decision does kill her?" I can't help but ask

"We're just going to believe in her and in the doctors. She's one hell of a tough girl. If she's anything she's a fighter." He smiles. Not his bright smile but a small worried one. But he's right we need to trust that she'll pull through.

An hour passes, still no update. Another hour passes, still nothing. Gage gets up and says he's going for drinks. Sloan goes with him.

Another hour and still no update. It's 2a now. Adley and Gage are asleep in the corner, her head on his shoulder. Sloan is asleep in Finns lap and Finn is listening to music.

He won't go to sleep until I do. I know that. And I won't go to sleep until shes out and safe. He knows that. We're both prepared for an all nighter.

2 hours later the same doctor is walking down the hallway again. I jump from my seat catching Finns attention. She wakes Sloan and Sloan wakes the other two. We all stand and approach him.

"Mr. Taylor." The doctor says when he approaches

I nod my head waiting for him to speak. "The operation was a success. It was very touch and go for a while there. She lost a lot of blood and went into cardiac arrest but she pulled through. She is a survivor. She fought hard in there."

I stare wide eyed at him. Tears stinging the backs of my eyes. "We aren't out of the woods yet though. Her body is going to need a lot of healing. She had a dislocated shoulder, an infection in her fractured arm, a slipped disc in her back, and a concussion on top of all the smaller scrapes and bruises."

The tears are falling now I can feel them. Someone behind me is also crying but my focus is trained to the doctor in front of me.

"We've put her into a medically induced coma in order to improve the healing process." He finally finishes.

"Can we see her?" Finn asks from beside me

"She is currently in ICU. We don't allow visitors in there. But in a few hours we will be moving her out. You are welcome to wait or we can give you call when we do." He politely says, tone apologetic.

"Thank you. We'll inform the nurse of our decision." Finn supplies because I can't form the words to speak.

The doctor nods his head and leaves. "Come on man. You need a shower and some sleep. We can come back in a few hours when they've moved her out" Gage says coming to my side.

I don't want to leave but they're right. I can't do anything right now. I can't even see her. I nod my head in agreement. Finn goes to inform the nurse and with one last look back at the doors blocking the hallway, we leave.