Save Me From Myself

Falling For You

  Waking up in the hospital was weird. I was confused on what was going on for a minute before looking over and seeing my arm in a cast. Then the memories of the forest and the boys finding me came to the forefront of my mind.

  I was alone in the hospital room but Taylors jacket was on the chair next to me. He must have just stepped out. But at least it showed he cared enough to be here.

  Those days spent in the forest made me realize something. I may not believe in love fully but I want to try. I want to try with him. I plan on telling him after getting out of this place. Maybe I'll write a song? Would that be to cheesy?

  Just then Taylor came back into the room holding a coffee. He looked up at me and realized I was awake. "Hey Dani. Good morning! How are you feeling?" He said placing the coffee cup down on the table beside me.

  "I'm sore but otherwise alright. How long was I out for?" I ask

  "It's been a little over a day. They put your arm in a cast and gave you some fluids." He says smiling.

  "I'm sorry for running off. I should have stayed and talked to you guys. If you're seeing Naya then that's your business-" I start but Taylor interrupts me

  "What happened with Naya was nothing. I'm not seeing her. The stuff I left there was A LONG time ago. I mean like beginning of the year." He clarifies.

  "Oh really? Then why did she try to return it just yesterday?"

  "Honestly I couldn't tell you. Maybe she felt threaten by you." He shrugs

  "Threatened by me? Why?"

  "Because of how much time I spend with you, how important you are to me, how much I talk about you. Take your pick" He says smiling.

  "Oh. I see." Maybe he feels the same way I do. God I hope so.

  "Anyways the doctor says you can head home tomorrow." He says leaning back and drinking his coffee.

***

  It's been two weeks since I was discharged from the hospital. Things have been a little difficult with having only one usable arm. But everybody has been so great at helping out with anything I need.

  They were a little mad at me for getting so hurt but mostly just happy I was alright. I've been talking to Finn about my song confession to Taylor and he thinks it's a great idea.

  We've been working on it since the day I was discharged. It should be ready by next week. Only thing is will I be ready to confess by next week?

  Taylor had been by my side 24/7 since I left the hospital. Doing every little thing for me. I actually had to put him in lock down just to pee.

  That Naya girl hasnt been around. I think she feels guilty for what happened. It's not her fault though. It's all mine. I over reacted and put myself in that situation. I wish I could tell her that, ease her mind a little.

  Right now I'm in the music room working on the song with Finn. Sloan joined us not to long ago. She absolutely swooned when we told her what we were working on. Clapping her hands happily and saying she totally supports it.

  Having the support of my friends is great and all but I'm really only concerned about one persons feelings, Taylor's. What if he doesn't feel the same way and I make a huge ass of myself.

  'You won't know till you try' first nice thing my mind has told me in a while. But it's right. I don't want to try to open my heart to love again unless that person is Taylor. He's been wiggling his way under my skin and into my shattered heart since day one.

***

  One week later and the song was ready. The confession was to go down tonight. Me and Finn are going to invite him to the music room for a 'sneak peek' at the song.

  I'm making my way over there right now. Crossing my fingers I didn't read the signs wrong and that all goes well. I see Finn standing at the front of the building. He waves to me when he notices me approaching.

  "You ready Dani?" He wiggles his eye brows sprouting a huge smile

  "No but fuck it." He laughs at my answer as we make our way to the music room.

  Once inside we head for the recording booth. I step inside doing some sound tests while we wait for Taylor to show up. After about 10 mins he walks in. Go time.

  "Hey guys!" He smiles and walks towards the booth "I'm so stocked to hear this"

  "Glad to hear it. We're almost done prepping." Finn says turning back to the sound board winking at me.

  My nevers are on fire and butterflies are tumbling wildly in my stomach. Taylor comes over to the booth opening the door

  "Thanks for letting me get a sneak peek. I was so happy when you offered." I nod my head and smile.

  "Alright Dani we're ready on my end" Finn calls through the intercom. Taylor shoots me a thumbs up and then closes the door, walking back to Finn.

  I place the headphones on, take a deep breath and then give Finn the thumbs up. He starts a countdown. Here goes nothing.

  I can't bring myself to look at Taylor for a while. I feel like if I do, I'll puke. When I finally do though, I notice his face is shocked. I can't tell if that's good or bad.

  I keep singing. Turning my focus back to the lyrics. Willing my nerves to calm down. When the song ends, I'm breathing heavily. I'm frozen in place and I can't bring my eyes to meet Taylors.

  After what feels like an eternity the door of the recording booth opens. I look up to see Taylor smiling.

  "Was that true? Are you falling for me? Or was it just a song?" His eyes hopeful

  "It's um, it's true." I bite my bottom lip. Looking down again.

  "Good." snapping my head up at that.

  "Good?" I parrot.

  "That's what I said. But Dani. I can't have you until you come back." He says stepping closer.

  "What come back? Come back from where?" The room is becoming unbelievably bright now. I shield my eyes trying to see Taylor and Finn.

  "Come back Dani." Is all I hear before the white light engulfs the room and me.

  Blinking my eyes open I see Taylor laying asleep on my hand. I'm back in a hospital bed. His hair has gotten a little longer and his face looks exhausted.

  I squeeze his hand to wake him. "Ryland?"