"I reject you."
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For these two star-crossed lovers, a happily ever after is more or less a happily never after. With three angry gangs, two angsty teenagers, and one love story for the books- maybe the end isn't just the end.
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So many twists...
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Warmth.
Why is it that something that I was so afraid of feels as good as it does? I felt like I was bathing in the sun. And yet if you look around, I was still on that dark field surrounded by my friends and thousands of strangers.
I managed to snap out of it. Finally the cold air of the night stirring me enough to shuffle further away from the group. Unbeknownst to them I had done the one thing I was afraid of. I turned. My hair covering my face as I frantically tried to make out an exit or an escape.
I followed a distant light, crashing into people who I couldn't even properly make out in the dark. My mind felt at slight ease after thinking I had gotten far enough away from the group. Now I just need to get a ticket to Mexico and get my name changed to Pedro or something.
Shit Ahro! You should've left as soon as the boys joined. Now he knows. NOW HE KNOWS!
Suddenly I found myself being spun around. My dark brown hair flying behind me. Just by the touch, even in this darkness, I knew it was him.
My soulmate.
Park Jisung.
The stadium lights flickered on revealing the taller boy's brown hair disheveled. Maybe from me falling on top of him or maybe because he ran after me. Either way he looked stunning. His gently tanned skin and the way his eyelashes cased his brown eyes. It was like time slowed once again.
I could feel his anguish and confusion. He could probably feel my racing heart. Although, I'll have to say, anyone within a 10 feet radius could probably hear my heartbeat. I couldn't tell what it was. Was it love? Fear? Sadness? Anger?
Why was it that I could so clearly tell what he was feeling, but could no longer decipher my own emotions?
I was filled with regret. Suddenly, I felt like I needed my soulmate to survive. I tried everything to make myself snap out of it. I couldn't be falling for this stranger. Not this fast, not like this. Not when I had so many things to accomplish. Not Park Jisung the youngest most ruthless member of an underground organization. Not him please.
His gaze crystallized and soon I could feel something burning at my core. His anger. His confusion had disappeared and returned as anger. His anguish had disappeared and took home inside of him as betrayal. I could feel it. He opened his mouth to speak, I already knew what he was going to say.
"Why?"
"I-I don't know." I couldn't meet his eyes.
"Who are you?" He didn't let me answer.
"It doesn't matter because I'm rejecting you too."
With that my soulmate or my I don't know what to call him, turned and disappeared amongst the crowd.
I felt empty. I was always empty though so why did this void seem so much worse. My legs crumbled beneath me, fighting back tears I sat in silence.
I rejected him and now he rejected me. I don't get it. Sadness took over. Why do I feel like my heart is no longer with me?
