Slytherins Heir [Draco X Reader] - Year Five

Chapter nine - Down For Dinner

Y/n pov

You didn't come down to eat and just drank what you had in your room, for three days after that event. On the fourth day you slid against the door again just wanting to die. You felt like shit. There was a light knock on your door.

"Y/n," It was Molly. "Can you please come down to eat? It's dinner and you haven't eaten for four days."

"You don't have to worry about me Molly." You muttered from beyond the door.

"Y/n please," Tonks voice said. "Remus is okay, and he hates seeing you like this."

"He doesn't have to see me like this." You state blandly.

"That doesn't ease his mind." Tonks said sounding worried.

"Tell him then." You sighed.

"She doesn't have to." Remus said making tears prick your eyes as your mind flashes to your throwing him into a wall.

"oh...." You muttered.

"just please, Y/n." Remus pleaded. You felt guilty. Can you do nothing right?

"I don't belong down there."  You tell him wiping your eyes.

"Then where do you belong?" He asks.

"In a cell or six feet under." You said softly. You knew it seemed extreme, but you had not wanted much more, you didn't understand what to do. Who to believe or what you felt?

"...Y/n, if you don't eat with us then our attempt to keep you safe are for nothing." Remus stated making you sigh.

"..." You stayed silent. You got up and brushed your hair, you put on a new pair of clothes, and made yourself presentable before you opened the door.

"Fine." You sighed refusing to look them in the eyes.

You walked in to the dinning room, it was only Tonks, Remus and Sirius who had stayed, other order members had left for their duties, And of course the whole Weasley family minus Percy of course, Bill, Charlie and Arthur. You saw a plate made for you in between Peter and Sirius who was at the head of the table. You sighed and took your seat. Across from you was Lupin and beside him Tonks.

You looked down and poked your food thinking about why you were here, you took a bite or two but didn't feel hungry.

"Sirius, we cleared another room but there's a box we couldn't move." George told him.

"I'll look at it and if I think it may be dangerous, I'll get the help of Moody." Sirius said before taking a bite of food. You had to admit it was good seeing him in something other than the robes he was given in Azkaban.

"Okay." George said taking a large sip of his drink.

"Sirius mate. Do you think we'll be able to join the order soon?" Fred asked making George look at Sirius nervously. You could feel the mood become tense.

"You will not." Moly said sharply, Sirius stayed silent and Molly and Fred went back and forth, you took a sip of water and then spoke once they took a break form fighting.

"Sirius when do you think I'll be able to join?" You asked, of course his was the first time down in days and that's the first thing you asked.

"Wha...?" He looked at his fellow Order members. Before collecting himself.

"Well, I mean this is an order to fighting against Voldemort and his death eaters, and I'm all in for that, if we're going to fight then I'm going to be a part of it." You told him sternly.

"You will not. You are just a kid." Molly said crossing her arms.

"Molly, I'm not just some kid, I'm the one who saw him come back. I'm the one who attempted to kill him." You told her your hand shaking slightly.

"Even so I will not let you." She snapped.

"You're not my mother Molly." You said sharply making her bite her lip. "And who am I supposed to ask my parents?" You asked making the silence heavy. "Listen, my father told me to always keep fighting, and I will, down to my last breath, my sister and Voldemort will see." You said. they have to pay; you'll make them pay.

"As much as I admire your courage, Y/n, you can't join, you are not a legal witch, you are underage." Sirius stated.

"I will be in two years time, unless we defeat him before then... plus I don't need a wand to preform magic."  You reminded them reaching out your hand and making a fork twirl around in the air before you released it. "I'm strong, if I join, I can help the cause." You told them sternly believing it.

"I agree with Molly on this." Sirius told you.

"hmpf..." You sighed but, in your head, you thought, 'I'll prove it to you'.

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It had been another three days of you getting back in with the group you had felt more comfortable.  You were still a bit scared but if you feared your magic forever then you'd never change.

You helped them clean up more rooms, and you got Peter, Ron and Hermione to help you clean up the room you were staying in as it was still fairly dusty, you get talking to Hermione who seemed to talk a lot about the house elf here, she felt bad for him while Ron didn't, Peter didn't like him but still felt bad that he'd gone a bit mad here alone. You felt bad for him, but you were also mad at him for insulting your friends and werewolves.

You felt better and better as the third day came around, you had another bad dream but this time it was Tonks who had been at your door, she seemed nice and you told her you were fine, she offered to get you water because there was a order meeting going on. She also told you that was why neither Sirius or Remus could be the ones to wake you, and you thanked her, she was kind and funny, she liked to entertain Hermione and Ginny with funny faces around a dinner table, morphing into animals. You staid silent only thinking most days. But tonight, was different there was an order meeting after dinner and even Snape was supposed to show up making you happy, Sirius quite the opposite.

Snape and a few others planned to show up after dinner. But Remus, Tonks, Sirius, Molly and Moody were already there for Dinner.