Headed Back to the Past [discontinued]

Ch 14 || The Church

Tays P.O.V

I think I got only about 3 or 4 hours of sleep and was awake before Ponyboy, Johnny was gone, and Pony was still asleep. Johnny had left a note saying he went to get supplies and that he will be back soon. I sat on the back porch of the church. The hill the church was on dropped off suddenly about twenty feet from the back door, and you could see for miles and miles. It was like sitting on the top of the world. I got lost in my thoughts and a daydream I didn't want to have

Daydream/Flashback 10 years ago

"I love you, my darling," My mom said standing in a long flowing white dress, tears filling her eyes. She kissed my five-year-old forehead.

"Why are you sad Mama," Little me said, reaching for my mama's cheek not having any idea of what was happening. My mother was beautiful, her pale skin in the flowy white dress and her noses and eyes had a slight red stain to them, probably from crying. My mother squatted next to me and pulled me into her arms.

"Its okay Baby, We are all going to be okay" She was probably saying this to herself more than me "Momas just going to go away for a while, but you'll see her again one day" I started to cry.

"Please don't go, mama" Little me sobbed "I want you to stay, please stay" My mama shook her head.

"No, Mama has to go but remember that she loves okay? Mama loves you more than anything else in the world; you remember that okay?" she said, I nodded.

"Mama Loves me," I said "and I love mama," I said happily not grasping the concept of what was happening.

"Okay," she said letting go of me and walking away to the bathroom and pulling something out of her pocket she laid in the bathtub, and I watched behind the crack in the door as she held the, What I know now was a gun, and shot herself.

"MAMA" I screamed and ran into the bathroom trying to shake her awake "Mama? Mama?" but she didn't "DADDY, DADDY HELP MAMAS NOT WAKING UP."

Then there were sirens, Blood, Ambulances, Doctors, hospitals, Noises, funerals "Johnny? Tay?" I heard Ponyboy call from inside the church, and that's when my dad started hitting me, when his first punching bag, my mom, died.

"Out here Pony," I said going back to looking back at the horizon, watching the birds flying gracefully over the trees and the trees dancing in the WindWind. It was peaceful up here; it helped me distract myself from what was going on. I felt a tear slip down my cheek, and I quickly wiped it away, I couldn't cry in front of these people, these boys I had only known for a week. They weren't with me or sitting next to me but when they came back. Ponyboy came out and sat next to me.

"You okay," he asked, I cocked an eyebrow at him he sighed "I dunno, you seem...off" he kept his eyes on the view.

"Well, yeah, I just watched a guy get murdered" I retaliated, and he sighed "Sorry."

"Did you get any sleep? Because you didn't sleep at the lot nor the train and you were still up this morning when Johnny an' i nodded off" he asked, keeping a calm voice.

I shrugged "A few hours" it wasn't entirely true, but it was a restless sleep that leaves you more tired when you wake up "How about you?"