A Pyro And A Psycho

Honest

I stared ahead at the door. Grandfather had explained a few things to me about my heiress job. Apparently I was stating tomorrow with a conference made to welcome my return. Next I'd be in school until evening when I have to train with Dian and then I have a nightly run with Vicar. It all seemed fine for me. I also asked about Logan and the rest. He said none were really harmed just resting since the spell used on them was a powerful one.
So here I stand stressing out about how Logan will react. I knew he'd me mad at me I just hoped it wouldn't be to an extent where he'd-
"Don't over think" I heard someone mumble. I turn to look at my side. Johann stood looking at his feet. I frowned. I still wander why grandfather wanted him to be my bodyguard. He seemed so shy and reserved. He literally screamed when he saw a bug just a while ago. So how could this kid, be in charge of my protection?
"Thinking too much reduces the amount of confidence," he went on. He spoke in a hushed tone as if afraid.
"And you need confidence to be a good heiress" he stated fiddling his fingers. I smile at him. I wanted to ruffle his head but an experience from a while before when I did ruffle his head, he turned into a black tennis ball.
"I know that for sure, thank you Johann" he glanced up at me then looked down a faint blush on his cheeks.
"Why heiress thank Yuri for?" He mumbled. I chuckle.
"Because even though you're so young you still give good advice" he puffed his cheeks at the ground.
"Yuri, 189 years old, Yuri not young" he stated. I giggle at him then sigh.
"Can I pat your head" he flinches but nods. I pat his head a little and he unexpectedly purs. I chuckle.
"Johann, have you ever been to school?" He frowns.
"School useless, Masters say, humans do not deserve to have us among them, Mistress Dian says" I frown.
"Then an amusement park?" He cocks his head.
"Define amusement? We have park here, but never named it amusement" I shake my head.
"No an amusement park is a place with games where-" I stop at his confused look.
"Johann," he hums.
"Have you, ever gone outside the Unknown Kingdom?" He shakes his head.
"Unknown Kingdom safe they say, Human World impure and full of bad, good rare in human world" I sigh.
"Let's go out then, after I get this done" I face the door again.
I turned the knob and entered. Logan was leaning against the wall beside the window a far away look on his green orbs. When the door creaked open he turned his head and his eyes widened. He stared at me in shock then his face quickly morphed into an expressionless one.
"Johann wait for me outside," he flinched.
"Yuri was ordered to protect Heiress," I smile to him.
"Just stay at the door I'll call you in later," he hesitantly nods and walks out.
Logan just stood there staring at me.
"That's what you wanted to tell me so bad" he stated. I shifted uncomfortably.
"Logan, I didn't mean to hide this it's just, I was nervous and I-"
"Choose to keep it from me? Hey Mara, if that's even your name, let's rewind to when I asked you who Isaac was and you pushed me away, or to when I last minute found out about your aunt and cousins, or when I had to push you into telling me about what was on your back or even," he chuckled his eyes eyeing the ceiling.
"So many things I had to find out indirectly, so much I don't know about you" he stared at the ceiling for a moment in silence.
"Logan, I'm sorry" he scoffed.
"I don't need your apology, I need you to be honest and trust me" he stated looking at me.
"I do trust you and, I can explain-"
"Trust me? Then why did I have to wait for your fuckin life to be on the line to know?" He growled. I balled my fists.
"Be honest this time, do you consider me even as your boyfriend?" I snap my head up.
"Of course-"
"Then what? Am I not good  enough, do I need to be like Cassey to know about your past do I need to be like Hash to understand what your going through, or should I be like Brandon? Yeah maybe I should go blonde have blue eyes and start doing sports!" He laughed bitterly. That made me snap.
"You keep on saying I'm not honest and that I hide stuff, then" I gulp.
"Tell me who is Charlotte," his gaze drops on me.
"Who told you?" He asked. I shrug.
"Don't know, maybe it was Mac, or Sofia or Ty or Meg or maybe your parents or even Jayce!" He shakes his head.
"You're being immature," I shake my head at him.
"Look I don't want to pick a fight right now-"
"Do you, then why didn't you tell me about all this?"
"Because I was scared" I say. He raises a brow.
"Of?" I bit my lip and look down.
"You don't have to tell me in fact you won't have to," I snap my head up.
"Make a choice, either you love me or you don't" I grit my teeth.
"You're kidding me?" I start.
"Now you want to give me an ultimatum when you're hiding things from me," I yell. His eyes harden.
"I'm not-"
"Then who is Charlotte!? You blame me for not opening to you, how can I open up when you're fucking other people over!?"
"Shut up," he growls.
"I, did nothing to her," he states. I chuckle.
"Right you didn't," I look away.
"Then why does she have a burn on her abdomen and bruises up her arm?" His eyes widen.
"Shut up," he warns. I laugh.
"Sometimes I wonder if I shouldn't have seriously taken her advice" I mumble. But he clearly heard since next thing I know I'm getting pinned to a wall.
"I TOLD YOU TO SHUT UP, YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW THE WHOLE THING!"
"THEN DON'T FUCKING TELL ME TO OPEN UP TO YOU WHEN YOU DON'T WANT TO TALK TO ME"
"YOU THINK I DON'T WANT TO!? I DO-"
"THEN WHAT!?"
"I DONT WANT TO FUCKING LOSE YOU ALRIGHT!" I fall silent eyes wide. He sighs.
"I don't want to lose you, I wouldn't care less what happens to me, I just want you safe" he whispers. He sighs again.
"Let's make a deal, if you tell me, I'll tell you everything" I look into his eyes hesitantly but agree.
"Alright,"