Abby's p.o.v
"You have so much more than I ever will," ashton said in awe as he walked through my house and into the kitchen.
"Money doesn't buy happiness. I wish I had your life," I told him and he just frowned.
"Trust me you don't. I have nothing. My mom is alone and can barely afford to put food on the table. My siblings are a mess and she can never handle them. It's like I have to step up and be the man of this family, but I'm just a mere boy," he explained.
"But you have people that care about you. My parents couldn't give a fuck about me," I replied.
"Maybe we just want what we don't have," he suggested.
"Yeah, you." I smiled before kissing him. All I want is him. All I want is to kiss him all day, tell him how much I love him, I want him to be my boyfriend.
"Why can't we do the whole dating thing," I asked him, just putting it out there to know what he thinks.
"I wish we could, but we can't," he replied simply and I frowned.
"Oh," I said yet it felt like I was just punched in the gut.
"I don't mean it like that. I'm sorry. Damn it, I always mess things up. I don't want to hurt you," Ashton mumbled before giving me a hug.
"Then why can't we be more than friends? We act that way but you refuse to put the name on it," I muttered.
"I can't tell you!" He yelled.
Now I just wanted to cry.
"Why! What's so bad that you refuse to tell me? Why are you such a coward?" I cried.
"Fine I'll tell you. But it's going to hurt you and I don't want to do that," he retaliated.
"Just spit it out!" I yelled.
"I'm going on tour, in two months," he said and looked into my eyes, as though he was about to cry as well.
"Wha-what am I suppose to say?" I asked as I stared at the ground.
"I don't know what to say myself."
All I wanted was for him to feel happy, to chase him dreams, but I never wanted to lose him. Not this early.
End of Chapter 36
It had to be said eventually :(
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