There are so many kinds of love,
But what I want is one that's worth it.
The one I want ain't peaceful like a dove,
Since all relationships have their argument.
I need a kind of love I can hold tightly onto,
For my darkness has nearly consumed me.
/I need someone that can show me the light
Because all I see in my future is darkness.
For someone to finally make me feel alright,
That is all I need to stop being so lifeless.
I am silently waiting for a love worth waiting for,
Since it might as well be my only strand of hope./
I see couples all the time in shows and movies,
And overtime that is what I expected love to be.
I know it's bad to see love as only fantasies,
But I still believe that I don't deserve to be happy.
Maybe deep down inside I feel I can be with someone,
But I know somehow I will fuck it all up because of who I am.
/CHORUS/
I have crushes here and there on people who make me smile,
But thinking about being with them always aches my heart.
Everytime I want to fall for someone I just add it to the pile,
The pile of how many times I nearly got myself hurt.
I'm done with the bullshit I just want something real,
But I feel like I can't get it because of my fucked up life.
/I keep having these dreams that one day I'll be saved,
But soon after I'm saved I'm always end up alone.
It makes me think no one will someone so enslaved,
Since I almost always go with the voice saying I'm on my own.
There are times when I break thinking there's no love worth waiting for,
But at the same time it is part of what's keeping me from falling down the edge./
Dedicated to ThePoisonousGoddess
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My Own Songs
PoetryThis is where I am going to upload all of my own written songs over the past couple of years. I would like any suggestions to a song title as well so I can keep writing songs. I also welcome any feedback about my songs. I hope you guys enjoy.
