My Own Songs

Turn It Off

I stare into the far away light,
And try to grasp the warm peacefulness.
But I'm being swallowed by the black.
I scream and shout for help,
But my voice is losing it's fight.
All I feel is this constant dreadful mess!
Everything else is what I lack!
I'm slowly losing all my damn hope!
Somebody please drag out these waters!
/This hell is killing my mind,
And gives me major physical pain.
Sometimes I feel like I'm not gonna survive!
This pain is so fucking unbearable!
My real self I just can't seem to find!
It's all I've been trying to gain
Because without it I don't feel alive!
I just wish that with this depression I could turn it off!/
I have done so many deeds for others,
But I won't do a thing for my lonely self.
My selflessness won't let me put myself forward,
And I get anxiety because I'm just too trusting these days.
I think the new friends I make will think I'm a burden.
Every single day I'm so afraid to show myself,
And with each forward step I step ten times backward.
I'm so sick of this constant feeling of being lonely!
It's what makes me not wanna survive!
/CHORUS/
I don't care who you are,
I wouldn't wish this upon my worst enemies.
No one deserves to go through this shit.
I'm barely hanging on by a thread,
And I'm dangling over a cliff!
No one should go through this war,
For it can destroy your friends and families.
Most of all it can put you in the darkest pit,
And the water will go just above your head,
So you need to swim if you value your life.
/Turn it off! Turn the pain off!
Turn this war around! So I can finally have peace!
I'm fighting for my soul, but the war is taking control!
Turn it off, turn it off! Get out of my fucking head!
I'm so close to breaking down! So please for the love of God turn it off. I don't wanna leave just yet, but I'm so close to.
Please oh fucking please just turn it off./