My Own Songs

I Hate Myself

I told you I'd never lie to you,
But I did it nearly everyday.
I told you I'd put you first,
But I just couldn't anymore, dude!
What the hell do you expect me to say?
Not once did you see if I was gonna burst!
I was slowly losing my mind while you never noticed.
/You gave me something at first,
But then you just used me for your thirst,
Your thirst for someone to be manipulated.
Soon after I realized it was far too late.
You are part of the reason I hate this world,
And I wanted nothing but to see you unfold,
Except in the end you won because I hate myself!/
You told me I could come to you,
But when I did you threw my emotions aside.
You told me I couldn't depend on anyone,
And it turned out I couldn't trust you, too!
All I fucking needed was someone by my side,
But you made it to where I trusted no one!
In your head I was nothing but worthless trash.
/For a couple years I couldn't trust,
But being alone was even more of a bust!
After you left my world I rejoiced,
Until you found another soul to devoice!
Because of your habit I beat your ass,
For I won't let someone else be harassed,
And make them think, "I hate myself!"/
The day I beat you I made a vow,
A vow to help the people in need!
No soul deserves the shit I went through,
And I wanna start helping with this song now!
This song will be one of the first seeds,
Which will hopefully heal a troubled soul anew!
I'm done with the bullshit of this hellhole!
/I kinda still have trust issues,
But I'm much more open than an igloo.
The vow is still not and will not be forgotten,
And if need be I will seek all souls rotten.
No more will a innocent soul be silenced,
Nor will their mind be subjected to violence!
No more will they say, "I hate myself!"/

AUTHOR'S NOTE: This song, and memory from like 7 years ago, came to mind after listening to a song about betrayal. I hope no one goes through or has gone through this type of crap, ever.