I'm sorry for what I might do,
But it'll probably be too late once you read this.
I've been in distress,
I've been a mess,
So bad you'd see me with disgust.
Don't worry, for I've been crying, too.
/I've worn this mask for as long as I can remember,
But only a select few has been able to see behind it.
God, don't hate me since I don't wanna do this shit.
I can't live in a stupidly large place where I can't fit.
Family, don't hate me, for I've been put in a lion pit,
And don't think I been dealing with this only for a bit.
God, don't hate me, for hell might get another member./Do y'all know how agonizingly slow a decade goes by?
Going with the flow and seeping depression don't mix.
Suicidal thoughts aren't something you can simply fix.
Meds for it's like giving mosquito spray to some ticks.
They just make it slower to the time of a final goodbye.
/CHORUS/Plenty of people know my kind of suffering,
And I know because I've help a few of them.
This shit is pounding in my head like a drum,
Like some coal being pounded into a shiny gem,
But the voices up here let me know I'm condemned.
I don't know how much more I can take of this blustering!
/Oh! I'm so sick of my life wasting away!
God, I pray that you hear my plea.
Family, I hope you don't hate me.
Friends, I'm sorry but I gotta flee!
Lord knows I'm hoping my thoughts don't become reality./
A/U: I know it has been a long time since I published, but that's because of college and I haven't had any inspiration to write. I said I'd write about family to someone but I couldn't write a song completely about family. I tried to. I mentioned family here though so...yeah...hope you enjoy! No idea when I'll write again.
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My Own Songs
PoetryThis is where I am going to upload all of my own written songs over the past couple of years. I would like any suggestions to a song title as well so I can keep writing songs. I also welcome any feedback about my songs. I hope you guys enjoy.
