My Own Songs

I'm Fine

So many things going through my mind,
But I only tell people a fraction of it all.
So much pain and misery fills my heart.
Every night I fear going to sleep,
Because all I see is darkness, no dreams.
So hello darkness my old friend.
I look down the abyss I'm destined to fall,
And fight the urge to end all this hurt.
My mind tells me to never make a peep,
Even though my blood flows through the seams.
/Please don't worry about me,
One day I'll just end okay.
Right now I'd tell you all I'm fine.
I'm fine with being lonely,
I'm fine dealing with the pain,
And I'm fine not being able to shine.
As long as no one else bears this weight,
I promise to you that I'll be just fine./
I can't see my life going ahead,
Hell I can't even see a day in the future,
That's how fucked up in the head I am.
I'm fighting and fighting and fighting,
But when will I finally get my due fucking peace!?
The tears are spilling and there's no end,
And when people say I'm alright I reply sure!
This war has me believing life is just a scam,
Where you have to sacrifice everything!
Well guess what, now I have fucking nothing!
/CHORUS/
I look around and see all of the pain.
I see others who are just like me,
So miserable from all the fighting.
I'm a guy who doesn't give a shit about himself,
But will do everything just to make another smile.
I know what its like to go through hell all over again,
So I'll be the light to help you see.
I'll make sure you're once again shining!
That's what makes this all okay for myself,
Being able to help others and lift their lives,
Even though I'm still slowly losing my own.
/CHORUS/