Impossible Love

Chapter 44

To the dream I couldn't make. To the man I couldn't take.

For now, I love you~

I still mumbled the song on my way home after dropping Helen off. This was like one of my best day ever. I took a deep breathe and got home.

I still couldn't face that guy, yet. I felt so different. It was like the world is moving upside down. The guy which I long love even loved me before I do. That's freaking unbelievable. Is that how life works? Is it like what the old said? Sometimes, he can only be your brother when he loves you as much as his life. Well, maybe.... uh I couldn't think anymore. Take it later!

Now, I feel like beaching. I wanna stroll all over the beach. Enjoying the sun and sea till sunset. Talking about that what I missed most was playing there with Alex and Kris when we were 14. It was 4 years ago. And I missed it a lot. Well, I haven't meet Alex for long. Also, he's busy with his work so he couldn't even call Helen much like before. I didn't know what job because Helen hadn't described that.

Now everyone was busy with their opportunities. Me freeing around like idiot. Not that I don't have work but I can't still face the guys yet. I didn't know why but I couldn't at all.

I plopped my whole weight down on the cushion and closed my eyes for a while. My hands were trying to reach the remote then turned the Tv on. The moment the Tv was on, and it's Pink Panther Show. Amazingly, I missed my everything especially my old-type of life. It was so easy hanging around like no care.

I'm bored but nothing help me at all.

Helen, just met. Now got works to do for her mom.

Kay, last morning. Seen too much of his freaking face. Plus, spending time with his parents.

Jordan, last last month. Maybe busying around with his fiancé Scarlet Mason.

Alex, last last month. Busying around with his works after Helen.

Albert and Kris, yesterday. I can't accept the truth yet so I can't meet them. Wait! Until I calm my shit down first then I'll do.

Now no one was left except me myself. I'm free. Tomorrow morning, I'll drive to the beach for sunrise and come back late night after enjoying sunset a things. I missed my old memories. All of those are just perfect after all. I still love my life to get to know all of those amazing guys.

"Marshmallow~~" I singsong because I ate all of those already.

|| нey тнere! alιzaвeтн. ιѕ ιт ѕoмeone вιrтнday тoмorrow? ι тнιnĸ yoυ do ғorgeт. ιт'ѕ alвerт'ѕ. we'll вe goιng тo тнe вeacн ιn тнe мornιng ғor ѕυnrιѕe. geт prepare. we love yoυ! oυr prιnceѕѕ. :)

ᖴᖇOᗰ: KᖇIᔕ ||

Another note was left on my door again when I was about to enter my room. Is he reading my mind or something? Though, yeah, I don't remember Albert's birthday at all. Every years, I got remind by someone.

"Homie~" I hugged the couch, enjoying the Tv. "Woah! It's boring. Gawd! It's annoying. I couldn't take this anymore." I got annoy by the surrounding until the evening. I got no time to do nothing beside laying there all evening.

"Hey! Why didn't you go to work?" the voice that I always tried to get rid off now really appeared.

"I-uh-I... well I." I couldn't say anything after sitting properly.

"I know you still can't take it yet even though we still have the same feelings." he hugged me and gave a kiss in my left cheek warmly. I shocked. Staying still. The old him is back but just for another reason.

"Ye.. Uh!" I gave up. I didn't know what to say anymore. Gawd! What is this feeling? I can't describe it at all. It was so different from what I used to get used to through my difficult-long years.

"Dinner yet? Let me make something for you." he smiled, ruffling my hair.

"I....." I can't even finish my sentence.

"From what I study from your face you don't even had lunch. You must be hungry." he chuckled. "Act as normal. Don't be like that! It's not you that I always get used to." and he walked to the kitchen.

"Well, talk like you're a fortune teller or scientist or something?" I used my whatever-accent. "Cook faster! I'm so hungry." I can't control it now my stomach was growling too much.

"Now, it's you. I'll be finishing in any minutes. Wait, there!" he shouted from the kitchen.

"What are you cooking?" I asked lazily from the living room.

"You'll see. Just don't ask too much." then I waited there until I fell asleep.

Something cold touched my face. I opened my eyes slowly. Something cold touched my cheek. Yeah! Something but what? I have to open my eyes. It was coke. Gawd! I was gulping so hard. My stomach was growling, too. I couldn't wait.

"How did you fell asleep just in 15 mins. Cooking is not that long." he teased me. "Maybe, yeah pig. All I know about." he kissed my cheek again. Well, noodles half entering my mouth then enjoying the half outside in the air. It was stringing out of my mouth. Correct that, I froze from what I was doing. "Eat properly." he messed my hair again.

Waste no time longer. I ate like there's no more food in this world left. Hunger made me forget everything.

"Done! I'm full." I put up my hand.

"This is what called pig." he chuckled and got to wash everything that was left.

Tell me that, I'm insane already. After those kisses and hugs I felt so warm and comfortable. For that reason, I'm curious if he did that with Julia, too. Exactly, a yes when it comes to love. Everything could happen. Everything is possible. Let me! I'll take all my courage to ask him those stupid questions. All I like to be in a person most is knowing all the truth out of others that make me feel better.