Impossible Love

Chapter 40

My dearest, I miss you. Day by day, I miss you more and more. I always remember the days we were together with happiness. Even though, we're far away now, still, that I love you. Are you doing well, these days? It has been over 2 months already and you might have already forgotten me but I still remember you, as ever! I know that you're still working on your coffee shop. I wish I can visit you one day, if I know that you still need me. Though, I know that you have no one yet.
Julia Heather!!

The letter from Julia was in the mailbox. I read it. My summer break is coming. I've been to 3 countries already just in one 2 months working at the Trading Company. It was my luck. Malaysia, Singapore and China. It's been Asia but I love it. I kept my working up and soon I'll be send to Europe. My dream. I wanna go on vacation with Kris and others' best friends but I don't think it's the right time. I shouldn't make it worst. Even if I can keep Kris with me but still he doesn't even love me. So, giving him to Julia is the best way. Just accept the truth! 2 months over. She's still mailing him so maybe she really loves him. Though, how about last time? Why did she ran away when Kris had problems? Never mind! They can fixed it themselves. I won't care anymore. Just let things go by fate.

"Here!" I handed it to Kris.

"What is it?" Al asked instead.

"Let him read it!" I kept on eating my fav spaghetti.

"Why is it?" He pulled me head facing him. "Something happened? What is it about?" he looked at me with his tell-me-now-or-you'll-be-dead-eyes.

"What did I just say?" I pushed his hand away and kept on eating.

"It's from Julia." Al spilled everything out of his mouth the moment he heard that name.

"Disgusting, Albert! You're a dumb shit." I hit his head hard.

"Gawd! You're confident after working there." he teased me.

"I had a good leader." I chuckled. "Well, I only have half a month off. It's summer break. I missed Helen and Alex a lot. I wanna see them." I pouted.

"How about me?" Al smirked.

"I'm so pissed off with your face." I stuck my tongue out at him, finishing my dinner.

"Annoying Beth!" he ignored me. "What is it all about?" all of a sudden he spoke up again.

"Just saying missing and wanting to meet." Kris explained.

"A reason of making up?" I raised my eyebrow.

"What are you saying?" he stared at me.

"In your eyes, you can't lie to me. I know every single thing about you, brother. You didn't have anymore feelings for her but now it's reacting to the letter." I chuckled.

"Aren't you reacting too?" Al poked my arm.

"Idiot. What's the point of loving someone who never love you?" I flinched his nose hard.

"Ouch~ Why you need force?" he made me an angry face but who care.

"Alizabeth! Are you saying all the truth?" Kris hold my wrist when I was about to walk to the washer.

"What? Truth?" I surprised.

"That question go through my heart, sister. Don't worry! She left me without reasons maybe I won't get back with her without reasons too." I looked down.

"Maybe?! Baby! Don't force yourself not to love. It's not anyone fault to love or not to love but it's the hearts and souls. Done? Done!" I shook my head. "Once, you'll heal. Before, you want to do anything think properly. I won't be preventing you from meeting her or make up with her. You can do anything you always wanted to. I'm not your master. Your heart is. Do what your heart wants you to!" just half way through, I was about to choke and cry but I tried not to. Act calm! Like I already, forgot the way I love him. I understand how big love is for me to him. So maybe he is too for him to her. "Darling! She loves you. You love her. Accept the facts, that you already left your pieces. Pick it up! Refill it with love. Fulfill your life with happiness. I'm your sister. I want my brother to be happy for the rest of his life not to make him lives his life as jail." Great Job! You've done a great job! "I've been doing my jobs. Now I'm done! It's Julia's turns to make your other half of your life. You need each other. Reply her mail, okay? Tomorrow you'll be meeting, anywhere you want. I won't tell you what to do more but just this one. The last wish from me, meet and make up. For my heart to be happy and you guys happiness and needs." I didn't force it out but tears kept on falling, when I turned around. I was talking without realizing that Albert was still there listening.

I'm strong enough to hold everything. To confront with everything. Now, that I've accept the fact that I don't have the opportunities to take care of Kris. All I wanna do now was just cry. I've went through all of these about 7 years by now and it became my background information.

Keep it!

It's my summer break.

I'm not gonna spend my precious summer break like this.

Plans! Yeah! I have plans for my summer break.

Helen I missed you. Miss you so much, my best friend!