Leon Kennedy Imagines/Oneshots

25. Here without you

A/n not connected to the bf oneshot but to get ready I thought I'd try something different. I'm going to put song lyrics into the story- This one is Here without you by 3 doors down. 

100 days have made me older since

the last time I saw your pretty face. 

A thousand lies have made me colder, 

And I don't think that I could look at this the same. 

But all the miles that separate

Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face.

The wind was wild against my face, the rain drops covered my face along with my tears. Her image in my brain. The pain not fading away after all this time. Her smile... Her laugh... It was music that I could not longer see. That bright light in her eyes faded... And so did she. Her voice so pure I could hear her. I closed my eyes. Forgetting I was on my porch in LA. I lean over, feeling the guilt piling up on me. She was so innocent. Perfect... 

I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind.

I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time. 

I throw the empty beer bottle at the ground smashing it. Hearing it break I feel myself tense. I should have been with her. I knew something was off. But I pushed it away. I thought everything was perfect... But she wasn't healthy and I should have seen that. 

Her perfect smile started to disappear, the one thing that kept me sane.  Her and her voice... Everything about her. I miss her so much. I look into the sky feeling rain and my tears mixing. She's the only one I've cried for... She dug herself a little spot in my heart, and she'll always be there

I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And  tonight girl it's only you and me. 

Her last breathe... I wasn't even there to say goodbye, she was gone. She was alone... She thought she was alone... That no one cared... But I did... I cared for her so much... Ugh the thoughts of her overwhelming my head... This song reminds me of her... Each word draws me closer to the darkness. She's so far away from me now. She moved on... She almost quit living... Because I wasn't with her... And then he stepped in. He took her away from me. 

The miles just keep rollin' 

As people leave their way to say hello

I've heard this life is overrated

But I hope that it gets better as we go. 

I tried to see her... After it ended... But I found her with another man... Him.

The pain I felt in my chest almost knocked me to the ground. I was so hurt I didn't notice the gaze on my walked away in tears. Finding this cheap hotel room. I look across the city, knowing she would be looking out her window too... To watch the city. She always was so fascinated by it... I never understood why... Till now... Seeing how the cars move, the way everything functions... Unlike I can... I can't function... I've lost the most important thing in my world... My love... My one true love. 

I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind.

I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time.

I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight, it's only you and me. 

I sit myself on the railing. debating on whether or not jumping was a good idea. The pain of her memory was too great... She was perfect... And I lost her... I was no good at this kinda thing... I should have... I should have fought harder. I should have been there. Then she'd still be with me... She would still be by my side...

Everything I know, and anywhere I go,

It gets hard but it won't take away my love.

And when the last one falls, when its all said and done.

It gets hard but it won't take away my love.

I wish I was gone... She didn't deserve to feel alone... She was too good for that... Yet she stayed... She put herself through pain to make me happy... I was too stupid and blind to see how she felt. I saw the signs but shrugged it off... And it almost took her life... 

She almost left because of the pills... Because she felt like she wasn't good enough for me. But that wasn't true... She was my everything. She was everything... everything to me... Nothing could ever change that. Nothing could ever take away my love for her...

I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind.

I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time.

I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight, it's only you and me.

I walk back inside to hear a knock on the door. Who would be here at 4 in the morning. When I look into the peephole... My heart stops. I open the door to see her face. 

"....Y/n...?" My voice comes out shaky. 

"You've been crying and drinking Leon..." she finally looks into my eyes... I can no longer move... 

"I wish I could-" 

"Fix things? I know... That's why I came back... I can't be with him... He's not you." 

"That's all you had to say," I lean down and kiss her on her perfect lips... 

I will never let her go again.