Leon Kennedy Imagines/Oneshots

31. The last song I'm wasting on you

The last song I'm wasting on you- Evanescense 

Warning-Sad

Sparkling grey

There my own veins

The pain flows deep within my veins... The knife drives across my wrist elegantly. The tears fall, blurring my vision to the point I have to wipe my eyes to see the blood seeping out of the wound I created. 

He hurt me... I thought he was the one... 

He broke me... I couldn't stop, my hands wouldn't listen to me... I couldn't stop... Each cut... made me feel better... It took my mind off the pain, I had no more hope... I had no more fight in me. 

Any more than a whisper

Any sudden movement of my heart

And I know

I know I'll have to watch them pass away

Just get through this day

I look up to the ceiling of the living room, the memories couldn't leave me be... He did so much to me that wasn't right... But I didn't know any better... It was all my fault... The screaming... I always did something...

Give up your way

You could be anything

Give up my way

And lose myself?

I was always losing... There was no escape... Not from the pain... the lies... the cheating... But I stayed... I don't know why... I just let it happen... I let him hurt me... That was my problem... I loved him so much... That I let him do this to me... 

Not today

That's too much guilt to pay

Sickened in the sun

You dare tell me you love me

But you held me down and screamed you wanted me to die,

I stood up shaking... both wrists bleeding all over the floor. My heart pounding as I cried. The knife still in my hands. I wanted to end it all. 

Honey, you know
You know, I'd never hurt you that way
You're just so pretty in your pain

I could never fight... I never had the will to fight against him... I loved him... he wasn't always like this... We were great once... Before all this agent work... After he brought home Ashley... It went okay, we managed... But when he lost his men... he was never the same... and I lost him... And everything got bad... The lies... the pain... all of it... 

Give up my way
And I could be anything
I'll make my own way
Without your senseless hate
Hate
Hate
Hate

So run, run, run
And hate me if it feels good
I can't hear your screams anymore

I can hear his footsteps... I raced into the bedroom... The last place I wanted to be.... The tears are overpowering now... I cut deeper into my wrists... Just wanting it to end... Why couldn't stop this time... I couldn't give up... My only way out... not this time I cut deeper and deeper until I couldn't anymore... Not making a sound... The footsteps got closer... I could hear his breathing... it was calm... and then it panicked. I could hear him shout something but I couldn't make it out... He hit the door. Screaming...

He bust in the door, taking me in his arms... All over his favorite jacket...I could see all the regret he had... for the first time in forever I saw the man I fell in love with. 

I couldn't make out what he said... but he meant it... But I wasn't gonna let him get away with it...

"You lied to me
But I'm older now
And I'm not buyin' babyDemanding my response
Don't bother breaking the door down
I've found my way out
And you'll never hurt me again"

I closed my eyes... waiting for death to come get me...