Leon Kennedy Imagines/Oneshots

30. What hurts the most...

What hurts the most-Rascal Flatts

Leon's POV

I could see her dancing, the man with her smiling and watching her in awe as he twirled her around. The pain cuts into me like a knife. I don't cry, I never have... But I lost her. She left me... 

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don't bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let 'em out.

I'm not afraid to cry every once in awhile 

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me 

There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay

But that's not what gets me.

I turn away hearing her laughter from across the room. The dress she was wearing looked so beautiful on her. I closed my eyes... her image burned in my head. I loved her... I never stopped loving her. The pain won't go away... No matter how much I drank she was still there. I was usually pretty good with hiding it... But sometimes it hurt so bad that I could never get away from it. 

What hurts the most was being so close

And havin' so much to say

And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin' what could've been

And not seein' that lovin' you

Is what I was trying to do.

A hand touches my shoulder, I looked and it wasn't her... I walked away. Unable to throw away the pain and forget how she made me feel. I walked to the balcony, beer in hand as I took a long gulp and swallowed. The carbonation burning my throat as I lower my hand. I wanted her to be happy, I really did. I knew I should have been over her by now... I just couldn't. 

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go

But I'm doing it

It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone

Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

I should have spoken up, should have told her what she meant to me. Told her that I was there for her... Then she wouldn't be getting married to someone else... Someone who she replaced me with... Because I wasn't there when she needed me...

What hurts the most was being so close

And havin' so much to say

And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin' what could've been

And not seein' that lovin' you

Is what I was trying to do, oh

What hurts the most was being so close

And havin' so much to say

And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin' what could've been

And not seein' that lovin' you

Is what I was trying to do

That's what I was trying to do, ooh

The tears fall as another hand touches my shoulder. This time more familiar. I can't bring myself to look. I know it's her... 

"Leon... Are you okay?" I turn to her. 

"Yeah I'm good, doing great actually." she sighs. 

"Your heart is racing, beads of sweat rolling down your face, your clutching your beer for dear life. Your hair is not the way you put it when your okay and mentally fine. It's a message and all over the place, you won't talk to anyone, you don't seem like you wanna be here... I understand if you don't if you wanna leave I understand. You didn't have to come." 

"Look that's not it okay. It's easier for me to not talk about it." She sighs. 

"That is precisely why I left you Leon. You never truly trusted me even though I trusted you one hundred percent and now look at you. I wanted to be there for you... I loved you... Fuck I still love you and I can't get you out of my head. But Daniel has been there for me, I'm just afraid of being heartbroken again... I won't make it through another heartbreak. I just cannot deal with the amount of pain-" A shot goes off, her eyes open so wide... That's when I see it. The blood, coming from her side. I look to where she was shot from,  and there is her soon to be husband, I catch her, holding her close to me. 

He holds a .22 caliber pistol. He smirks and runs off, leaving me with a dying Y/n. I go to chase after him, but Y/n's grip tightens as she coughs. The security runs after him. I pick her up and take her down where the ambulance will be. 

I hold her tightly, just hoping she stays alive. I look up and feel her go limp. I freeze. I look down noticing her eyes are closed.... 

"No no no no Y/n no please no," 

I fall to my knees, I can't feel her heartbeat as the ambulance arrives. They load her in... Leaving me behind. I sit, on the ground... her blood all over me. My mind goes blank. 

I think I was sitting there for hours when I finally got the call... I couldn't hold back the tears this time. I never got to say what I needed... 

That's what hurts the most.