soul switch│ j.jk ✔

s i x t y

this is it.

it's now or never.

i'm now gonna talk to jungkook. after that, i'm gonna talk to taehyung.

i told clover that i'll be talking to them today. she smiled at me and wished me good luck.

the thought of taehyung screaming profanities terrified me because i haven't seen him get angry at me. in fact, i don't remember a single occasion that taehyung got mad at me. he never did.

i wanna back out now but i know i just can't. all these thoughts have been making me sick, literally and not. i do not want to cause taehyung anymore pain; i don't want to lead him anywhere, anymore. i don't know if i caused jungkook pain but i decided that i don't want to cause him that, as well.

the three of us, maybe we've all just had enough.
we need to take a rest.

more or less, i already imagined what taehyung's reaction will be. jungkook, however, i am not entirely sure.
i don't know him that well enough.

what will his reaction be if i told him i fell in love with him?
will he tell me harsh words as well?
maybe a bitch? a slut? a hoe?

i gulped.
i will never know if i don't go to the lockers, right?
on the way, i should also mentally prepare myself for all the hurtful truths they're both gonna throw at me.

eru, a slut, playing with both best friends' hearts?

i told taehyung to wait for me by the library. i'll tell jungkook everything. i'll confess everything. i just hope i don't cry because i still have to talk to taehyung.

i was already close to the lockers when i felt the most painful sting on my chest that made me stop walking. i clutched my chest so hard because the stinging sensation was too much to handle. i couldn't breathe and i tried gasping for air.

i felt like i was drowning.

i held my chest and fell to my knees with a loud thud. i started gasping and coughing at the same time and when i covered my mouth, blood splattered all over my hands.

no.

my vision started blurring and swirling as it became even more harder to breathe. the stinging sensation was too much that my body started numbing as it slowly started shutting down on me.

i gasped for air one last time before i finally succumbed to the darkness.