i lie down on my bed, staring yet again on my room's ceiling.
thoughts of jungkook kept swirling in my mind, and i don't have plans of pushing him out.
these days, nothing but thoughts of him have occupied my mind. all those little irritating moments we had together had always kept me awake at night.
the worst one was the kiss jungkook and i had, way back when we both thought a fairytale's kiss might solve this problem i created because of my selfishness.
i never had a kiss like that in my life. jungkook was actually my first kiss.
he gave me nothing but weird churns inside my stomach after that kiss that i tried so much to dismiss.
in that moment, he looked so ethereal. his doe eyes were so captivating that i found myself getting sucked in by his gaze. he was so close to me that i could see the little scar on his cheek, and the mole below his lips. he was so close to me, so close, that i could smell his scent i somehow got used to smelling.
he was so gentle when he held me; so gentle when he pulled me closer.
it felt so nice and warm to be held by him.
but thoughts of him brought me nothing but ache; thoughts of him i somehow found myself always drowning into.
that kiss ignited something in me: a crippling pain.
but he meant nothing to me.
taehyung is, after all, the one i love.
jungkook means nothing to me.
even if i couldn't feel the butterflies in my stomach, taehyung's still the guy i love. even if i'm starting to feel tired, he's still the guy i love. he didn't reject me yet so i still have a chance now.
wrong.
jungkook never once left my mind after that kiss. he gave me so many aches in my chest but never once did i complain.
whenever i think of him, i could do nothing but to hold onto my chest to try and ease the pain.
isn't that enough of an answer?
why couldn't you stop thinking of him?
why are you feeling this pain?
why is he giving you weird churns in your stomach?
why are you suddenly somehow shying yourself away from taehyung now?
why are you persistent on chasing jungkook?
all these thoughts kept on swirling inside my head that tears started rolling down my cheeks because of my confused state.
“i'm in love with jungkook.”
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author's note;
cliffhangers hmm yes.
i luv it.
meet me in my other on-going books;
→ 148 genius (namjoonie fanfic) + i'm very active on updating with this book.
→ lethal throne (bts fanfic)
→ confessions i will never say and other proses (a poetry + prose book)
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