Why? [YiZhan FanFiction]✔️

-1- New Start

Why?

-1- New start.

This morning my boss came to me and asked me, "Where have you been? I've been looking for you everywhere!"

I told him, "Yes, boss, good employees are hard to find."

But seriously. I overslept. Yeah, right, it was my own fault. Why did I have to watch that one series all the way through? But maybe you know how it is. You always say one more episode, then I go to bed.

And then something exciting happens and the episode is over. Of course you want to know what happens next. And then you have to watch the next episode. And then what happens next? Exactly, only at the end something exciting happens again and you have to keep watching.

It's a real vicious circle. I don't know how many times I have been in this situation, I have not learned from it until today.

Last year a series came out called "The Untamed". I waited until all episodes were online. Then I started watching them. And what happens? I just couldn't stop. Luckily I was on vacation and could watch until my eyes closed on their own.

Somehow this Lan Zhan reminded me of my former best friend Wang Yibo. We have known each other since elementary school. And somehow he was always just like this Lan Zhan. Don't smile, don't show emotion. Somebody might get the idea he has feelings.

Unfortunately, he and I haven't seen each other for three years. Even though he's family. In fact, he's my brother-in-law.

Three years ago our parents, mine and his, had the grandiose idea to get their children married together. Neither my big sister nor Wang Yibo, my best friend at that time, had to say anything.

I felt sorry for him. My sister is a beautiful, wonderful and kind woman. But she is also eight years older than him. He was only 19 years old when he had to marry her.

I also feel sorry for my sister. She always liked Yibo, but more than her little brother, than a man. She had been very frustrated and angry when our parents told her to marry Yibo.

After the wedding, which took place only a few weeks after our parents announced it, Yibo and Yanli left Beijing. They said in order to live their own lives as a married couple. But I think they were so angry they just wanted to leave.

At that time, after they moved away, I went to the USA and started studying there. I'm still in the USA and I don't really plan to go back home.

I finance my studies through my work. I am independent and live together with three others in a house near our university.

Oh yes, I haven't had any contact with my family since I left Beijing. After they forced my sister and Yibo into a marriage, I simply hated my otherwise so loving and attentive parents.

Sometimes I still miss them a lot. But mostly I'm still angry. Especially because they knew I had feelings for Yibo then. He didn't know and he'll never know. But my parents knew it and how I felt when my best friend, who I loved, had to marry my big sister, they didn't care.

In the beginning my parents tried to call me a lot, they wrote me a lot. But I did not react to anything. I needed time and distance to heal my broken heart.

It took me two years to get over the fact that the man I loved was married to my big sister. Two painfully long years.

To distract myself from the heartache, all I did was study, learn and go to work. I had been so busy trying to free myself from my past that my roommates often thought I was a ghost who could be seen from time to time.

After these two years something strange happened. I met a student at university. Her name is Emma, she is Chinese but she was born and raised in America and is beautiful. And the strange thing is, I fell in love with her. Although I was sure I wasn't into women.

We've been engaged for a month and we're getting married soon. The engagement to Emma was the reason I contacted my parents. I wrote them a letter telling them about Emma and our engagement.

Admittedly, so that they could not write me back, I deliberately did not write my address on the envelope. I simply wanted to inform them that I was getting married.

Of course it may sound hard now that I reject my family just because of the love I felt for Yibo. But it is also because of my sister. Besides, I couldn't bear to get any information about them.

Even though I have finished with Yibo and now plan to start a life together with Emma. So I know that it would tear me to pieces if someone told me something about Yibo and Yanli and their marriage.

I know that me and Yibo would never have been anything even without Yanli. He never felt the way I did. There was one weekend when we went camping where I thought, yes, this is it, finally he sees more than just the best friend in me. But after that weekend everything changed.

What happened that weekend? Well, I'll tell you about that another time. I don't want to think about it today. Today I want to be happy and let bygones be bygones. Because today is a special day.

I, Xiao Zhan, currently twenty-two years old, will be a father in seven months! When Emma and I went to her gynecologist today, we got the news. She hadn't been well for a while.

She suffered from morning sickness, was constantly tired and was very moody. Her family doctor said she had to go to the gynecologist. And bada bing, we're going to be parents! Right now I'm torn between fear and anticipation.

Unfortunately the pregnancy is a risk pregnancy. And the critical period is far from over. And the risk here is for the baby, but also for Emma.

Emma is not in good physical condition, as the gynecologist said. Apparently, she is missing key hormones. She also has gestational diabetes and she has a tear in her uterus. And that's the gynecologist's biggest worry. That's why she has to stay in bed for now.

Let's just hope for the best. Like when I went to the States to get a fresh start. Away from everything that hurts and into a new life. And what could be better than that, if a new life is created?