Why? [YiZhan FanFiction]✔️

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Because Yibo wanted to take the night plane, we could not take Xinxin to the airport. I asked my mother-in-law to watch over her while I drove Yibo to the airport.

The two of them played extra long and hard today and already said goodbye to each other when Xinxin had to go to bed. She was crying really hard and didn't want to let go of Yibo.

Somehow I had already guessed something like that. But luckily my mother-in-law came and could distract her a little and keep her busy until we left the house.

The drive to the airport takes half an hour and almost the whole time we were silent. Yibo just clarified with me the times when we can talk on the phone. Because of the time difference and my work, because I have to go back to work tomorrow morning.

Arriving at the airport, we said goodbye after his flight was called. We hugged each other and gave each other one last kiss before he left. It was a strange feeling to see him leave like that.

The goodbye itself seemed staged or forced. I tried to control my emotions and he had put on his indifferent face. I waited until the plane took off and then went back to my car.

I sat behind the wheel of my parked car for at least half an hour and cried. This goodbye was so strange and my heart suddenly felt so heavy that I just started crying.

Back home, I crept into the house. My mother-in-law had written to me that Xinxin had fallen asleep and that she would lie down in the guest room. And so that I didn't wake them both up by mistake, I crept into my room immediately.

Anyway, I had little desire to talk. It was already after midnight, my eyes were swollen from crying and I had to get up early again because of work.

As I lay in my bed I noticed the scent of Yibo coming from the other side of the bed. The pillow and the blanket smelling of him, so I exchanged everything and cuddled my head into the pillow from Yibo and my body into the blanket. So I had at least a little bit the feeling that he was with me that night.

Totally overtired I started the new day and the work. My boss, a fifty-six year old man who is on the Executive Board of the company, immediately had a lot of work for me. Everything that had been left over during my vacation.

It annoyed me, but distracted me from the thoughts of Yibo. During the lunch break I had lunch with Wu Jiacheng, my favorite colleague, and told him about my vacation and my new relationship.

He was very surprised to hear that I have a boyfriend. But he was happy for me after hearing the stories of Yibo and me. "I hope this time it's forever Zhan Ge." He said to me with a big smile.

In the evening, Xinxin and I waited for the call from Yibo. But when he still hadn't called half an hour after the agreed time and Xinxin soon had to go to bed, so I tried to call him.

No idea how many times I tried it. In the end it was always the same. "The person you have called cannot be reached at present. Please try again later." The same thing over and over again.

None of it worked, Yibo was out of reach and Xinxin had to go to bed. With a loud scream, I took her upstairs. She screamed and cried and did not want to sleep until her dad wished her a good night.

I told her that he was probably asleep because of the long flight and that he would probably call tomorrow night. I should have kept my big mouth shut. Because he didn't call the next evening and my otherwise lovely daughter turned into an angel of terror.

It was so bad that my parents-in-law picked her up that weekend and drove her to the farm, although it would have been next weekend.

Again and again I tried to reach Yibo at the arranged time. But always without success. I even called my parents and asked them if they had heard anything from him. But also there, nothing.

I'm starting to feel like that Seungyoun. Except that the phone was on at his place. And I'm really starting to get mad. Because not only I am waiting, but also my little daughter, who doesn't understand at all why Yibo didn't keep his promise to call her every evening.

On Sunday evening, Xinxin returned from the farm with her grandparents and immediately asked me if her dad had contacted me. I told her that he hadn't, but that he was very busy and therefore couldn't get in touch.

With an ever increasing anger I went to bed late in the evening and kept asking myself why Yibo didn't at least write a short message.

Or was there something between him and Seungyoun after all? Maybe he regretted coming here and is now with that other guy again? Or maybe they were together all the time and Yibo cheated on him with me? Am I an affair?

Slowly the scent of Yibo vanishes from my pillow and blanket and the feeling that he is somehow still here disappears, too. I don't know how many tears my pillow had to catch in the past nights, but they were certainly plenty.

My feelings take me back to the time when I left Beijing and came here to the States to forget Yibo. All the pain I carried within me is now as real and tangible again as it was then.

It has been six days since Yibo left and I have not heard from him again. I am already preparing myself to say goodbye to Yibo once again. Of course again only one-sidedly, like back then.

Tonight Xinxin hadn't even asked for him anymore. Yesterday, she said Yibo was evil and no longer her dad. I don't know what's going on with him and why he doesn't answer, but I hope it's for a good reason. Because he's about to break my daughter's heart.

And if he hurts my daughter, he doesn't need to get in touch with me ever again. My kid is above everything to me, and I'm not gonna let him hurt her. So he better have a very good reason why he doesn't contact me.

I don't want to give up on him right now and at least give him a chance to explain himself. Unlike that time. But if he doesn't get in touch, I don't know anything. And I won't wait forever!